Another Interesting Find...

[ocs_midnight]

Well, as you can see below I found a letter she wrote me a long time ago when I was diggin around in my old email. So that was cool. Well I was digging around again and I found this. Just another thing to show how much she cared about me, which just doesn't seem to fit her current...blah can't think of a good word, current truth? Iono, anyway here

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Josh, kid I love you but seriously.

[ks4menotu]

So Josh you back at it again. I am going to be brutally honest like only I can be. Josh I know so much about this whole crappy situation and I have heard you talk about her for over a year. Josh I have heard so much of this crap. She doesn't give a crap about you. She didn't know what love ment she might have thought she loved you but she doesn't have that feeling that she thought was love anymore. It apprent to me and I don't understand how it's not apparent to you. Josh she's dated other guys. That's a BIG indicator to me that she doens't care about you. If you were the only one her then she wouldn't need someone there. She's stringing you along again like only she knows how to do. Remember all thoes times she would talk about all the other guys. Remember how she wrote on her xanga about how the long distance thing didn't work for her. She through with you in that way Josh and the only reason she keeps you around know is because she's too dependent on other people. She isn't strong enough to move on and she isn't strong enough to be alone. Josh move on. I am tired of seeing you as this mess of a person. Before all this crap started I remember my happy Josh. I remember joking wit you about all this crazy stuff we did at church. Now you life is consumed with her, and all it does is bring you pain. Do you ever think about anything other then "Why dones't she love me?" You stopped think "I am so happy she loves me." The second your thoughts changed I stopped supporting your relationship because it's damaging. Josh no matter how much you want justification for your feelings for her to be right and okay your not going to get all the justitifiction you need becuase you know what's real. When you post these comments all I can think of is that you want justification that these feeling are right. Well, Josh any feelings that hurt you bad arn't right. They won't just dissapear you have to let them go. Josh I miss you the way I knew you before all of this.