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so the last few days have been the same as the last few weeks. work all day. class after work. sleep till its time to start all over again. im so...... happy? i dont know the last few days ive been excessively hyper right after class. i think thats why i havnt been calling jared because he'd prob think i need my head checked out with the way ive been acting :-X it may have something to do with my waves of *duh duh duh* a n x i e t y. dood dont ask me why i spelt it that way theres something wrong with me you dont have to remind me. . .
ANYWAYSSSSSSS. i did talk to my psych teacher about my anxiety problems. i wrote her a letter. she had a talk with me ((outside)) away from everyone. i guess. but yeah i basically told her straight up in the letter and explained a few things outside with the way ive been acting lately. extreme highs. extreme lows. over emotional. freaking out all the time. not sleeping. mixing things in my head. shes glad i see something wrong with myself at this point in time and shes glad im not ignoring it. blah blah blah... she gave me a number to a psychologist she knows who specializes in my problem and said i should go for a trial counceling just to have a professional sit down and talk with me one on one. whenever i get a chance ill call that number. whenever i get the chance i also need to make an appt with the chiropractor also. im just a mess of things. im falling apart. and im only 18. dont know how im ever going survive anything.
anyways. let me got to bed i have a 9-6. 10 hours. :-/ then another. 1-10 on saturday. i feel like all i ever do anymore is stay at the mall. wearing a costume that is not me and be nice and fake to costomers. all day. i have no idea where jm is anymore. if you want to help me find her. please do. help.
ANYWAYSSSSSSS. i did talk to my psych teacher about my anxiety problems. i wrote her a letter. she had a talk with me ((outside)) away from everyone. i guess. but yeah i basically told her straight up in the letter and explained a few things outside with the way ive been acting lately. extreme highs. extreme lows. over emotional. freaking out all the time. not sleeping. mixing things in my head. shes glad i see something wrong with myself at this point in time and shes glad im not ignoring it. blah blah blah... she gave me a number to a psychologist she knows who specializes in my problem and said i should go for a trial counceling just to have a professional sit down and talk with me one on one. whenever i get a chance ill call that number. whenever i get the chance i also need to make an appt with the chiropractor also. im just a mess of things. im falling apart. and im only 18. dont know how im ever going survive anything.
anyways. let me got to bed i have a 9-6. 10 hours. :-/ then another. 1-10 on saturday. i feel like all i ever do anymore is stay at the mall. wearing a costume that is not me and be nice and fake to costomers. all day. i have no idea where jm is anymore. if you want to help me find her. please do. help.