Sues at the Cinema
Tart popped around and we chilled with a movie. Sue had gone out to the cinema and was going to come back late. The kids went to bed and we put a film on. I expected Sue to be back around midnight, but she didnt get back until 2.15. We ended up having an argument because I just wanted to be kept in the loop and she only got int ouch with me at 12 to say the film finished. I was worried sick and im fed up with this marriage now. Sometimes I wish I didnt have kids just so I could walk away, and then I feel guilty for being selfish.
I ended up smoking 3 fags and felt like crap for it afterwards.
When she got back we felt closer again, but I think its an illusion created by our emotions and the need to feel secure. Nothing is secure.