Just another rejection...

[ocip1987]

I dont get you.
There was a time, when you said I was very important to you.
There was a time when you told me very personal things.
There was a time when you missed me.
There was even a time when you thought youd love me...

Where did that go?
How can you be so smooth, so hard on me?
What can I have done to pull all the feelings out of you?
Im still concerned about you, I still see you as a friend.
But I dont understand you.
I dont understand why you are only seeing the me that hurt you, not the one that cares for you.
Every time I make the first step and make myself vulnerable, youre just pushing the dagger into the wound and let it bleed even more.
Why do you have to do this?
Do you get something out of it? Do you feel superior?
I just cant believe that youre doing this unconciously.
I cried for you, many times, but you dont seem to realize.

Where did that smart, curious, little girl go that I once loved so much?
I dont see it in you anymore.
But I know its there.

And I hope that you too believe in the me that cares for you, because its here.
Now more than ever.

Why is this so fucking hard?
Why cant I just forget you?