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I find myself in a very unique position, looking for parallels and finding them so readily available.
And yet, I find myself in the middle of a massive Venn diagram. My life, which has always been so perfectly compartmentalized and somewhat neat and innocent, is now being blended together. It seems that everything that has once been separated is now being mixed together. However, this is not a bad thing. It is just a little daunting. A massive change is coming. Something which has been so neatly separated from my former life will now come into play with everything that I have left behind.
All of the elements of my life that I have so neatly avoided and have so neatly stored away have come rushing forth, like opening a box akin to something you'd see in a Lucky Charms commercial. I am not afraid- the worst part is already over. It's just going to be really awkward in that sense that you get when someone is where you'd never thought they'd be.
What am I talking about, you might ask?
Reverse culture shock.
In the last year, I have changed so much. It seems the last few years of my life have been one of extreme flux and self discovery. Through all of this, I have wronged many people. For this I will never forgive myself. Yes, there are many things I have done for which I deserve a dreadful fate. And for this, I will bear my punishment, as I rightly should. However, there is a new monster I must do battle with. A formidable foe which will test every ounce of resolve I have left.
And yet, I find myself in the middle of a massive Venn diagram. My life, which has always been so perfectly compartmentalized and somewhat neat and innocent, is now being blended together. It seems that everything that has once been separated is now being mixed together. However, this is not a bad thing. It is just a little daunting. A massive change is coming. Something which has been so neatly separated from my former life will now come into play with everything that I have left behind.
All of the elements of my life that I have so neatly avoided and have so neatly stored away have come rushing forth, like opening a box akin to something you'd see in a Lucky Charms commercial. I am not afraid- the worst part is already over. It's just going to be really awkward in that sense that you get when someone is where you'd never thought they'd be.
What am I talking about, you might ask?
Reverse culture shock.
In the last year, I have changed so much. It seems the last few years of my life have been one of extreme flux and self discovery. Through all of this, I have wronged many people. For this I will never forgive myself. Yes, there are many things I have done for which I deserve a dreadful fate. And for this, I will bear my punishment, as I rightly should. However, there is a new monster I must do battle with. A formidable foe which will test every ounce of resolve I have left.