The Complete Works of Maya, Lost to Most of Humanity

[oceaxe]

I just learned that Sarah Rees Brennan, formerly known as Maya and Mistful, has not only taken her fics down and requested that those who have downloaded her master fic file not share it with others, but she has reportedly deleted her own stories from her hard drive

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[oceaxe]

I would be very interested to hear what in DH disappointed you so. For me, I was not disappointed because I had stopped expecting much from Rowling. Like many creators of epic stories, it seemed she had started something larger than she could keep adequate control over. It had become clear to me that she was not going to be able to deliver on the promise of the first five books. My only hope for DH was that she allow Snape the complexity many had perceived in his character. My main emotion on reading the book was relief that her arc for Snape did not include him being an irredeemable villain, because by then I had lost all faith in her ability to do justice to her characters and her world.

I wish I had never used the word "betrayed" in either post or reply because it's the wrong word. Betrayal implies a willful malfeasance to those whom you owe fealty. An author, in my view, owes no one and nothing fealty except their creative vision. It is possible, though, that in the fulfilling of that vision, an author may seem to promise what she ends up failing to deliver. That's how I feel about Rowling... I feel that her grand vision wasn't as grand as I imagined it would be. And that's okay, because even though it wasn't, her vision still delivered a huge number of characters and situations I will never forget and enjoy thinking about (way too much, as it turns out).

This interaction has restarted me thinking about fan investment in creative works and how delicate a balance it must be to be true to your vision while facing the reality that you may disappoint people. I over-invest in characters to the point of total absurdity... but it not only brings me a lot of pleasure, it also teaches me a lot about myself. So, despite the disappointments, it's worth it.

I hope you don't think that I feel you did wrong by your fans. I never did, and I highly doubt I ever will. If I feel anything but unadulterated glee that you exist in this world and got a book deal (!), it's sadness that DH ruined your desire to continue with fanfiction, and copyright law makes it impracticable for you to continue even if it hadn't.

[sarahtales]

I'm not sure what else I'm supposed to think: what's insulting your fans but doing wrong by them? (Which is not to say: how dare you? Just I spoke up because you seemed sad and disappointed with me, and I wanted to explain that my intentions were good.)

Deathly Hallows didn't do anything but present a universe I didn't want to write in, with morality I didn't believe in: I felt the same way after Order of the Phoenix and just think it's a shame Half-Blood Prince sucked me back in for a while. I think I'm just temperamentally unsuited to fanfic - I never had a fandom before, and I never will again. I want my own characters and my own world, and I always did: that's not JK Rowling's fault or the book deal's fault at all.

[oceaxe]

Just to be clear (and I wasn't in the original post), it is the fact that you no longer have the stories that caused me to post what I did... I have known for a long time that the stories would no longer be circulating or posted.

I was sad and disappointed, but at that point (lo, these fifteen hours ago) it was because I didn't understand why you would make it impossible for yourself to revisit your stories. Now I think I sympathize more and I'm less disappointed because I'm less confused.

But now I'm upset because I seem to have insulted you, and I never intended to do that.

Oh! Emotions. Sometimes I don't know what to do with them. On the one hand, I'm glad I wrote what I did because you took notice and felt moved to explain what had happened. On the other, I was careless with my words and caused offense. By way of partial explanation, I'm starting a new business and stressed out of my mind. If you're remotely curious, email me and I'll send you the website url for my music venue.

[sarahtales]

Well - yes, being told I'd insulted people did hurt.

But I understand about stress, as I am packing to go to my fourth country in less than a week, so I'll conclude with best wishes for the new business. I'm pleased if you feel less sad, and pleased you liked the book.