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I've never been the bad guy, and I've never really had people dislike me. I'm sure there have been a lot of people who just don't happen to like me or worse but I don't usually hear about it and I don't deal well with being actively disliked. It just makes me so down on myself even though I may dislike those people. Even if I know their reasons are stupid or they're being defensive. Even if they don't know me. Even if they don't understand the situation. I can't stand that feeling. There are just so many reasons that I don't like myself right now. Ugh.