Never Can Say Goodbye (part 2)
Two weeks later, after long consideration over Sunny’s advice about her date to go to the graduation party, Taeyeon finally decided to ask Tiffany. It was Wednesday afternoon and Tiffany was just getting ready to change after her weekly tennis practice with her team when she felt someone approached her.
“Here.” A bottle of water suddenly appeared in front of her eyes.
“Thank y--, Taeyeon?” She was surprised at the sudden appearance of her out of all people.
Taeyeon smiled. “Hi. I thought you might need it.”
“T-thank you…” She still was very surprised.
“ I was watching you practice.”
“You were?”
“Yes. You are pretty good.”
“I was?”
She chuckled. “Don’t be so modest. You are actually famous for it.”
She ignored it. “What are you doing here, Taeyeon?”
“I’ve said it, I was watching you practice.”
“Yes, but why?”
“Can’t I just be here for watching you?”
“Oh, c’mon Taeyeon. What do you want?” Her expression was bitter.
Taeyeon noticed. “You hate me now?”
Tiffany sighed, “I don’t hate you… Just…” She took a seat on the bench.
She sighed and tried to avoid her eyes, “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean that. What is it?”
Taeyeon decided to just ask her.
“Well, the graduation party is coming up…”
“And?”
“I was wondering if you already have a date.”
Tiffany didn’t expect that at all.
“What?!”
“I’m asking you to go to the graduation party with me.”
She snickered. “Are you sure? Last time I checked, you rejected me to go out with you.”
“Can’t I change my mind?”
“Are you only asking me because you don’t want to go to the party alone?”
“What??”
She immediately regretted it. “I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have said that.”
Taeyeon tried to regain her calm.
“It’s okay. I guess you can’t help it. I mean it though. I’m asking you to be my date to the graduation party.”
“Are you sure?”
“I’m asking you right now, aren’t I?
She looked away and sighed, “Fine. I’m coming with you.”
“You don’t seem very happy.”
She finally looked at her, “It’s not about that, Taeyeon. You rejected me and now you suddenly appear and ask me to go to the graduation party with you? Don’t you wanna go with Jessi?” You’ve asked her, haven’t you?
I do. “I don’t. I’m asking you right now. I want to go with you.”
Do you really mean it? “really?”
“Really. I mean it.” I’m sorry, Tiffany.
“Okay.” Tiffany finally said, eyes still not looking at Taeyeon’s.
You’ve asked her and she rejected you, didn’t she? You don’t want to go to the graduation party alone, so you ask me, don’t you?
“Is that a yes?”
You know I can’t say no to you. “Yes, I’m coming with you. Do you want me to pick you up?”
“If that’s okay with you.”
“I’ll pick you up at 7.”
When they said goodbye to part, Tiffany’s eyes finally reached Taeyeon’s and Taeyeon saw those soft eyes she saw the last time Tiffany had asked her out. They were honest and full of hope but they also contained sadness and pain. It was only seconds, but it was too much for Taeyeon, so she looked away. She left her slightly feeling guilty, but she didn’t know why. She decided to just ignore it, without thinking too much about it.
***
Tiffany groaned and stretched on her bed. She was just blinking her eyes, tried to adjust to the morning light when she heard a click. What’s that?
She pushed the blanket aside only to find Taeyeon in front of the bed with a phone and another click.
“What are you doing?”
“Taking a picture of you.”
“What?! She immediately pulled the back and covered her body with it.
It made Taeyeon laugh.
“You are not naked Tiffany! And I’m not trying to take a naked picture of you! Relax!”
Tiffany peeked under the blanket to see herself fully clothed and huff. “Thank god.”
Taeyeon laugh.
“Why are you taking my picture then?”
“Wow. You make me sound like a pervert. I was just taking a sleeping picture of you.”
“Why?”
“You looked so cute, with your messy hair and glasses still on.”
“What? Why do I have my glasses on..” Tiffany furrowed her eyebrows when she realized she still wore her glasses.
Taeyeon chuckled, “You fell asleep while reading last night I guess. I found your book on your stomach.”
“Why don’t you just put them aside for me and let me sleep? Uggh…” She threw herself back to the bed and pulled the blanket over her head.
“You were just too cute, I couldn’t help it.”
Tiffany secretly opened her eyes inside the blanket. Am I? Why are you suddenly so…
“I’m making breakfast today. You better get up and take a shower. It’s Saturday. We’re going out today.” She walked her way out from the bedroom with her phone in her hand. She left the bedroom door opened.
Going out?
“We are?” She pushed the blanket but kept her position on the bed, furrowing her eyebrows deeper. I don’t remember-
“Yes we are. I want to watch this one movie with you.” She heard her shouting from outside.
Tiffany smiled hearing her last sentence.
With me, huh?
***
On the day of the graduation party, everything actually went pretty well. Tiffany wasn’t as nervous as she had thought and everything wasn’t as awkward as Taeyeon thought. Taeyeon noticed that Tiffany was slightly happier, she didn’t know why, but it was like she was smiling all the time. It actually surprised her that they actually got along pretty well. To be honest, Taeyeon always thought of Tiffany as someone who was actually snobbish and only acted nice around people, but that night showed her that Tiffany was genuinely nice. She could see why people like her so much and why she was very popular in their campus.
They were talking about the people on the dance floor when Taeyeon noticed her glass was empty, so she excused herself to Tiffany to refill her drink. When she was about to pour the drink, she felt someone poke her on the shoulder.
“Hi, Taeyeon.”
“Jessica?”
She chuckled,”Yes, it’s me. Glad to see here! You said you wouldn’t come.”
Yes, I said that because I wanted to go with you. “Yeah. I got a date to come with.” Can I ask her who she’s coming with? Is it too obvious? Should I-
“Hey, Sica... What took you so long?”
The sudden appearance surprised her. Her eyes went wide in surprise. Kwon Yuri?
Taeyeon watched as Kwon Yuri was side-hugging Jessica comfortably. Jessica smiled at the friendly gesture and returned the gesture. It seemed that they were close. It can’t be…
“I was talking to Taeyeon, sweetheart.”
Sweetheart?
Yuri turned her head to Taeyeon, “Hello there! I believe we haven’t met. I’m Kwon Yuri. Jessica’s girl friend. Nice to meet you!”
Wait, what?! Girl friend?Since whe-
“H-hi, I’m Kim Taeyeon. Nice to meet you too.”
Nice to meet you indeed.
“You look very beautiful tonight, Taeyeon-ssi! Your date must be lucky!”
“Th-thank you. “
“Why haven’t I heard about her, dear? She’s very cute!” She grinned to Jessica.
“She is.”
Really? Do you really think so?
“T-thank you. I didn’t know you two were dating.”
Yuri grinned, “Yes, we are! Glad that I can say that out loud now. It’s been almost two years since we first began dating, actually. Too bad we had to keep it a secret, though. My father has always been against me dating before graduating because I have to keep up with school work and my tennis play, so we decided to keep it a secret. Now that we are graduating, I can’t see why we have to keep it a secret anymore! So, we decided to declare our love to the world!”
Taeyeon noticed that Jessica was blushing, “Kwon Yuri… You don’t need to exaggerate like that…”
Yuri only glanced at her and chuckled, “Sorry, Sica. I can’t help but brag. Can’t you believe that, Taeyeon-ssi? The unreachable Jessica Jung actually asked me out on a date! Of course, I was very surprised! When I saw her in the tennis court every time I finished practice, I thought she was waiting for Tiffany. It turned out that she was actually watching me. Apparently, she had a crush on my since sophomore year!”
Taeyeon felt her heart breaking. So this is why she’s been rejecting me, huh? She was actually dating the Kwon Yuri? No wonder she’s- What was I thinking? I can’t listen to-
“Hello everyone.” Tiffany suddenly appeared from the crowd and approached them “There you are Taeyeon, I was looking for you.” Tiffany put her arm around Taeyeon’s shoulders.
Taeyeon was a little surprised at her gesture, but somehow, she thanked her for that.
“Fany? You didn’t tell me you came!”
“Well, I did. “ She shrugged, somehow she looked a little annoyed. “Anyway, what are you guys doing?”
“Well, I was just telling Taeyeon here about me and Jessica.” She grinned innocently, “…and how Ms. Jung here is so in lov-“
“Well, I know you’re happy and everything, Yuri.” Tiffany smiled. It didn’t reach her eyes. “But I don’t think everyone needs to hear that.” Stupid Yuri and her big mouth.
“You know I’m just so-“
“Happy. I know. You’ve been telling everyone that I heard.” She turned to Taeyeon. “Anyway, I want to dance. Do you want to dance Taeyeon?”
“H-huh? S-sure.”
Tiffany let go of Taeyeon shoulders and slid her hand to Taeyeon’s, grabbing her hand and pulling her closer. “Bye Yuri, Jessi. Hope you guys enjoy the night. Let’s go, Taeyeon.”
Tiffany pulled Taeyeon to the dance floor, leaving a confused Yuri and a knowing Jessica.
“What’s with her? Did I do something wrong?”
Jessica linked their arms together and rubbed Yuri’s arm. She just smiled. You have no idea Kwon.
***
The ride home from graduation was filled with silence. Taeyeon was lost in her own thoughts and Tiffany just wasn’t dared enough to break the silence. A few minutes later, they finally arrived in front of Taeyeon’s dorm.
“Here we are.”
“O-oh? Oh, yeah we are.”
“So…”
“So…?”
“I had a great time.”
“Me too.”
Silence.
“Taeyeon?”
“Hmm?”
“I’m sorry you had to meet them like that.”
“Who?”
“Jessica and Yuri.”
“It’s okay.” Taeyeon smiled, “Did you know?”
“About them?” She looked down, “Yeah, I did.”
“Why didn’t you say anything?”
“They asked me not to tell anyone. I’m sorry.” Tiffany sighed, “Besides, I know how it feels to be heartbroken…” She trailed. “..and I thought you still had a chance, I mean, it’s not like they’re married or anything.”
Taeyeon had to smile when she heard her last remark. She glanced at Tiffany. Tiffany seemed avoiding her eyes.
“Thank you.”
“For what?”
“The dance.” The save. “You danced pretty well.”
Tiffany blushed. “No, no. I’m practically a robot. You’re just saying that.”
“No, I am not. You were good. Trust me.” She smiled and Tiffany was still blushing, “Really, I had fun. Thanks for tonight.”
Tiffany smiled, “My pleasure.” It reached her eyes this time. She finally looked at Taeyeon, still smiling. They were looking at each other and Taeyeon saw those eyes. The soft and gentle eyes that she always saw when Tiffany was looking at her. It was strange for her to be at the other end of such stare. Somehow it felt warm and comforting.
Maybe, I’ll try to listen to Sunny this time.
“Tiffany?”
“Yes?”
“Do you want to go out sometimes with me?”
“W-what?” What is she doing?
Tiffany was obviously very surprised.
“Do you want to go out with me?”
“I-I heard you.”
“Well?”
Tiffany was lost for words. “I- I … But you said no...”
“Maybe… we could start over?” And maybe that way I can forget her…
“Are you sure?” Does she really mean it?
“Yes.”
I hope you can help me forget her Tiffany. Maybe it’s for the best…
*
“Did you or did you not Taeyeon?”
Taeyeon couldn’t answer.
“Did you or did you not come to Jessi’s apartment?”
“I…”
“Just tell me Taeyeon!” At least tell me the truth!
“I-I was drunk, Fany!”
Tiffany scoffed, “That’s your excuse?” She shook her head, “I can’t believe you.”
“We didn’t do anything! She didn’t even let me in, Fany!”
“I know she won’t Taeyeon. She’s my best friend!”
“I didn’t do anything.”
Tiffany looked at her, “Did you confess to her?”
“I-i…” How did she-?
“How could you Taeyeon? They were just engaged!”
Taeyeon looked down. She didn’t know what to say.
“Come on Taeyeon, answer me! If our relationship isn’t based on love, please at least have a decency to make it based on honesty!”
“W-what?”
“Oh, please Taeyeon.” She looked away, taking her breath. She looked at her again with softer eyes. “We’ve been going out for what? Five months and we only kissed like what? Three times? Five times? I’m not sure. But I’m sure I can count it with both of my hands. I can’t even remember when the last time was! Not that I mind, because I’m honestly happy just being with you.”
Fany… I’m…
“Those stare Taeyeon… You always have it when she’s around. You don’t think I know? I have the same stare Taeyeon. Towards you.”
“Fany… I”
“I love you Taeyeon. I thought you knew.”
“Tiffany… I-I’m…”
“Are you playing with me, Taeyeon?”
“No! I’m not!”
“So what are you doing with me?”
Taeyeon could only look down. She didn’t know it would be this messy. I’m trying to move on from her Fany. I’m trying… If only I could explain it…
“Are you still in love with her?” Her voice surprisingly sounded much calmer.
She didn’t want to answer that. “Fany… Just let me explain.”
Tiffany waited.
“I’m not playing with you Tiffany. I’m really not.” She sighed.
Tiffany still silently listened to her.
“I’m trying to move on, Fany. I really am.” She sighed. She decided to just be honest with her, “To be honest, I chose you because you love me and you’ve been so nice to me.” She couldn’t force herself to look at Tiffany. She felt too guilty. She was carefully preparing her next words.
“I-i was thinking that I could learn to love you too…”
Those words hurt. For both of them.
They went silent. Taeyeon didn’t dare to say another word. She peeked to see Tiffany’s face. She could see she was thinking.
After the long silence, Tiffany suddenly broke the silent.
“So Taeyeon, what do we do now?”
“W-what?”
“Do you regret your choice?”
“M-my choice?”
“Me. Do you regret it? Remember, honestly Taeyeon.”
Taeyeon tried to compose herself.
“Honestly, I don’t.”
“Do you still want to learn to love me Taeyeon?” I’m just a stupid, stupid fool. Aren’t I?
“W-what?” Is she… giving me another chance?
“Well, do you?” I just love her too much, don’t I? I’m such a crazy fool.
Taeyeon couldn’t believe her ears, but Tiffany seemed serious.
“I do.”
“Okay.” She took a deep breath. “Let’s try this again.”
Taeyeon held her breath. Wait, what?
“Properly this time.”
Taeyeon gave her a questioning look. What does she mean?
“I know you still have feelings for her. But you said you chose me. “ She paused, “I-i… I mean you said you’re willing to learn to love me and you chose me.” She tried to hold her tears, “Then I’m willing to wait for you. Just…”
She took a deep breath, “Just take your time.”
That moment Taeyeon realized how much Tiffany really loved her.
***
“Yes! Aaaah… Deeper… Yesss... Hngg..” She tightened her clutch on the headboard and lolled her head back. “Yes.. yes.. Aaah.. Fas- Ah! Hnggg… Faster, Fanyy…” Taeyeon couldn’t say another word. She shut her eyes, unconscious at her gaping mouth. She fastened the movement of her own hip, trying to fasten the pace. Tiffany complied. She tightened her hold on Taeyeon’s shoulders. Taeyeon unclenched one of her hands from the headboard and put it around Tiffany’s shoulders. The pace was getting faster and the bed was moving along. Tiffany let out a silent moan and gaped while looking at Taeyeon’s face. Taeyeon suddenly opened her eyes and they were staring at each other with each of their mouth gaping. Each of them enjoying each other lusting face, turning themselves more. They knew they were close.
Taeyeon lolled her head again, feeling it coming. She pulled Tiffany to her and kissed her lips. Tiffany was a little surprised at the gesture, but couldn’t think further because of her lust filled mind. She kissed her back with all her heart. Pouring all her love for Taeyeon.
I know you don’t love me but at least I can show you how I love you.
Taeyeon felt electrifying heat through her blood. She didn’t know if it was because of the kiss or because it was close. She kissed Tiffany with the same fervor.
The climax finally hit them hard. Both broke the kiss, lolling their head and enjoying the pleasure they had.
After awhile, they slowed the pace. Tiffany rested on Taeyeon’s body. She panted in her ears her love for her.
Taeyeon turned her head to Tiffany and kissed her. She put her hand on Tiffany’s cheek, brushing her cheek with her thumb. They stared at each other with hazy eyes. “Thank you.”
“You’re welcome.”
After awhile, Tiffany got off from Taeyeon’s body and laid beside her. She put aside the toy.
Both were still panting.
Taeyeon rubbed Tiffany’s left arm and held her hand. The gesture made Tiffany shivered.
“Wow, Fany. I didn’t know you had a strap-on.”
“I thought you might like it.”
“I love it.”
They both chuckled.
“Definitely one of the best.” Taeyeon kissed her cheek.
She blushed. “Yeah, definitely.”
Taeyeon laced their finger and played at her hand. Tiffany could only watch at their hands. Why are you suddenly so warm to me?
Taeyeon suddenly turned to look at her, “Thank you, Fany-ah.” I…
“You’re welcome, Taeyeon.” She smiled.
They stared at each other. Somehow, Tiffany thought her thank you wasn’t the same thank you she received earlier. It meant more.
Taeyeon kissed her.
Taeyeon... Are you fina-
“Hey. Do you have your tennis session tomorrow?”
The sudden question broke her thought, “No. Why?”
“Good. You look so tired the other day.”
Taeyeon leaned her head on Tiffany’s shoulder. Tiffany smiled at the gesture, silently enjoying it. “I’m okay.”
“Did you like the movie?”
“Well, it was better that I expected. I didn’t know it had some steamy scenes.”
“I didn’t know either. I was surprised.”
“Me too.” Tiffany suddenly realized something, “Wait a minute…”
“What?” Taeyeon turned her head.
“Were you… turned on?”
“W-what?”
“You had this strange expression on the way home and you suddenly pulled me and kissed me on the hallway.”
Taeyeon didn’t answer.
“Taeyeon?”
“Oh, shut up. It’s normal.”
Tiffany couldn’t help but laugh.
“What? It is! Besides, you’re my girl friend. I can do whatever I want with you.” She turned her body to Tiffany.
“No you can’t.”
“Oh, yes. I can.” She kissed Tiffany and slowly got up to be on top of her. She straddled her and they both gasped when they felt their chest brushing with each other. Taeyeon put both of her hands on Tiffany’s cheeks to pulled her lips closer to hers. She kissed her fervently.
Tiffany tried to stop her. “Wait, Taeyeon.”
“What?”
She pulled her head back. “Aren’t you tired?”
She kept pecking her,”Hmm?” She started trailing her kisses to her neck. “No.”
Tiffany pulled her head back again, pushing her ribs a little. She tried to search for her eyes. Taeyeon finally stopped pecking and their eyes finally meet. She looked at Tiffany’s questioning eyes.
“What?”
“Nothing. It’s just… You seem to like it more these days…”
“Like what?”
“Mmm… Sex?”
“I thought you like it.”
“I-i do… B-but..” Tiffany blushed.
“Still blushing, I see.” Taeyeon couldn’t help but chuckled. She brushed her hand on Tiffany’s cheek and brushed her bangs.
Tiffany was surprised at the warm gesture. Taeyeon... She stared at Taeyeon’s eyes, silently questioning and enjoying the touch.
“I just… Like experimenting I guess. Don’t you?” She was looking at Tiffany’s lips.
Tiffany noticed, “I do.” Her cheeks getting redder.
“Good.” She smiled. “By the way, I’m thankful that you are good at sport, especially tennis.”
“What? Why?”
“It helps in bed.”
Tiffany couldn’t help but chuckled,”Thank you. Can I say that too bad you weren’t?”
Taeyeon let out a laugh, “Why? Because I’m on the receiving end most of the time? You were questioning me just now you know.”
“It’s because you always seem so tired afterwards. You even make me worried when I thought you were passing out. ”
“Hey! it’s because you’re so good!”
They were both surprised at Taeyeon’s remark. Taeyeon blushed a little. Tiffany couldn’t help but smiled, “Well…”
Taeyeon tried to change the topic. “I really think that your idea was great.”
“What idea?”
“The double-ended strap-on thing. The one we just…”
“Taeyeon…”
“What? We both can reach it at the same time. She stroked Tiffany’s hair. "I want to keep up and I’d like to try.” She gave her a soft look.
Taeyeon suddenly tangled her fingers in Tiffany’s reddish hair and started kissing her. She trailed her kisses to her neck. Her left hand tried to search and grab the toy. Tiffany let out a soft moan and started to roam her hands on Taeyeon’s ribs unconsciously. She felt Taeyeon shivered. Taeyeon stopped and let her lips hover on top of Tiffany’s and whispered,
”Just let me do the work now, Fany-ah.”
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A/N: First of all, I must say to people who read this that I'm sorry for the first part!! There were TONS of mistakes! Ugh. Anyway, thanks for those who comment on my first ever post. I really really appreciate your comments. So, thank you! :)
Anyway, This is a story about a relationship where one isn't with someone she actually loves. In this case it's Taeyeon. If you haven't noticed, the bed scenes is actually intended to portray their relationship and how it shifts. They are also where they express their feelings towards each other without words. The moments afterwards become like an honest moments between them. Like in the last scene, where Taeyeon said something about "always being in the receiving end" and that she wanted to keep up and try. They're like an analogy, somehow. Even the "double ended" thing was actually an analogy. XD
I hope the you guys like the 2nd part. :)
ps. if you got confused on the time of when the scenes happen, the separator can help you. It got longer when I jump on different time line.