Never Can Say Goodbye (Part 3B)
Bam!
“Ar-are you okay?” Tiffany pulled away from their kiss, panting. They just hit Taeyeon’s apartment front door.
“I’m-I’m okay.” She pulled Tiffany’s head back towards her; both of her hands were on the brunette’s face.
Since the kiss at the party, Taeyeon and Tiffany had been all over each other. They were making out all the way to Taeyeon’s apartment, stumbling all the way to Taeyeon’s door, ignoring the look on the security guard on the way. Now, they were in front of Taeyeon’s apartment door, leaning against it while continuing their previous activity.
Tiffany pulled from their heated kiss, “W-wait… We should-“ Taeyeon stole a kiss. “W-we should get the door.”
“Yeah…” She pulled Tiffany’s head to move to her jaw. Oh my… “Yo-you’re right…”
They reluctantly pulled away from each other, panting. In the fastest way possible, Taeyeon opened the door to her apartment, pulling Tiffany with her and captured her lips once again. They hastily threw their shoes in the foyer and stumbled while making out all the way to the living room, throwing away their coats on the coach. Taeyeon immediately buried her fingers back in the brown-reddish hair, deepening the kiss and pushing her body closer to Tiffany.
Tiffany could barely think. The feel of Taeyeon’s lips on hers on her was so amazing, it made her head felt so dizzy with passion, desire, and love that she had been suppressing for Taeyeon. She had always been careful of her affections towards her. With all that had happened, she’d been trying to be considerate towards Taeyeon’s feeling by not pushing her and letting her took the pace of their relationship. Afraid of making things awkward and making Taeyeon uncomfortable, Tiffany had been holding herself back… especially in the affection department. So finding herself making out with the woman she loved so much, knowing that she kissed her with such fervor was so mind numbing. She was so lost in the lips that were kissing hers, fingers that was grabbing her hair and body that was pressing her, she felt like she was going crazy. They certainly had ignited all of the feelings that she had been suppressing to Taeyeon and the only thing she could think right there was letting it all out. Never had she thought that it would be this maddening, this... stupefying.
Tiffany ran her hands up and down the blonde’s back, trying to feel more of her. She could feel Taeyeon gasped at her touch, but didn’t pull away. Instead, she tightened grab on Tiffany’s head, pushing herself more into the kiss.
She then felt Taeyeon was moving and pulling her. Not wanting to lose the contact, she gladly complied. Taeyeon pulled her into her room until they fell on the mattress. She could feel her head was brought down by the blonde. Taeyeon was deepening the kiss as she opened her mouth a little wider, inviting more of Tiffany in. The taller girl took the invite and lightly licked the inside of Taeyeon’s lip. Taeyeon gasped, but then recovered quickly. She brought her tongue out to meet Tiffany’s, deepening the kiss that much more. Tiffany could just barely taste the remnants of the champagne that they’d had in the immense heat of Taeyeon’s mouth. She deepened the kiss and lightly sucked at Taeyeon’s tounge.
Taeyeon couldn’t keep the moan back now. Tiffany was certainly a good kisser and she couldn’t get enough of it. Her kisses were so full of restrained passion and desire… it made her feel so aroused. She wanted more. She needed more. With a split- second decision, she grabbed Tiffany’s hand and placed it directly on her breast over her dress.
The gesture brought Tiffany back to reality. She was so surprised. She stopped kissing and raised herself on her elbow, looking at Taeyeon’s dark eyes. Even though she knew that Tiffany was as aroused as she was, Taeyeon could see a slight hesitation in her eyes.
“Tae-…“
“It’s okay.” She panted, tightening her grab of Tiffany’s hand in her breast. “Please.”
The look that Taeyeon gave her gave her the assurance that she needed. She gulped and brought herself down once again, capturing Taeyeon’s lips. She was hesitant at first, but then she heard a mewl from Taeyeon when her fingers started to squeeze her breast, she knew Taeyeon needed it more than she knew. As she kissed her, she could feel the nipple hardening beneath the heat of her palm. She allowed her fingers to start exploring the soft roundness and the rigid peak.
Taeyeon closed her eyes, amazed at the sensations Tiffany’s hand on her breast was sending throughout her body. She arched her back, needing more as Tiffany squeezed the flesh, running her fingers over her nipple, nearly making the blonde jump out of her skin.
“Oh, Fany…” Taeyeon threw her head back, needing more as Tiffany started to kiss her neck, nibbling on the soft skin, sending pleasurable tingles through her body. She had no idea Tiffany could make her feel like this. Her eyes were fluttered enjoying the feelings Tiffany made her feel.
“God Taeyeon,” Tiffany whispered. She could feel Taeyeon tugging the back of her shirt, “You’re so beautiful.” She kissed the base of her neck up to her jaw. Taeyeon could only mewl in response. She unconsciously ground her hips to Tiffany, trying to get more friction. She needed more.
“Oh…,” Taeyeon panted, her breaths were uneven. She then slipped her hands between them, unbuttoned her own dress. She then slipped Tiffany’s hand over her bra, encouraged her to resume what she did.
The sudden movement of Taeyeon’s hand between their bodies stopped Tiffany, realizing what they were about to do.
“W-wait, Tae-taeyeon…” She pulled back from the kiss, their noses still touching with each other.
“W-what?” Taeyeon stole a kiss. “What is it?” Not really paying attention to Tiffany, her eyes started to flutter shut from the pleasure she got from the friction of their lower body.
“D-don’t you think…” Tiffany hesitantly pulled away, “…don’t you think we should sto-…” She asked, still kissing Taeyeon, betraying her own words.
“No” Taeyeon arched up to push herself to Tiffany. Please don’t. “Why?” She kissed her again.
Trying to hold herself together, Tiffany reluctantly pulled herself up, making a little space between their bodies. She searched for Taeyeon’s eyes. “No, it’s just…”
“What?” Feeling Tiffany’s lips leaving hers, she opened her eyes, looking at the younger girl, “Just what? You don’t want me?” She panted.
“What?” Tiffany was surprised. “No! That’s not what I mean,” Of course I want you. “It’s just…” Tiffany tried to take a breath. “A-are you sure?” She wanted it so bad, but she tried to be responsible, “I mean…We’ve never…” She panted. “A-are you sure you want this?” Are you sure you want me?
Yes. Please don’t stop. “Yes,” Taeyeon looked at her, panting. “I want you. Don’t you?”
“Of course I do,” She rested her forehead on Taeyeon’s, panting. She closed her eyes. “God, I want you so bad.”
That gave tingles all over Taeyeon’s body. She looked up at Tiffany’s eyes, “So, shut up...”, she panted, looking deep into Tiffany’s eyes and giving her all the trust and assurance that she needed. “…shut up and make love to me.”
*
Taeyeon blinked her eyes; adjusting her eyes to find herself woke up in her own bedroom. She turned her head slightly to see the clock on her bedside table; it was 6.30 in the morning. She groaned and was about to stretch when she felt the presence of another person in her bed. She turned her head to see disheveled brown-reddish hair spreading in the pillow beside her, covering a familiar face whose owner was still sound asleep.
Taeyeon turned her body to lie on her side, propping her head with her hand and studied the face in front of hers. It all started from the kiss they shared last night. She didn’t know what went to her mind when she leaned up and kissed Tiffany in the party. All that she knew then when she saw Tiffany there looking at her with her signature smile, is that she wanted to kiss her so bad. So she’d done it… and she couldn’t stop.
Being the inexpressive girl that she was, Taeyeon had always kept things to herself. Unlike Tiffany who was naturally sociable, Taeyeon was more reserved. She didn’t really express herself much and affections weren’t really her thing. This made her feel bad sometimes, especially recently when they finally got closer with each other. She knew Tiffany was an expressive type of girl, but to her she felt that she always held back… always a bit more careful, especially at showing affection. Taeyeon knew it was because of their unusual situation. But the way Tiffany had been treating her was more than one could ask for. She was so genuine and so understanding; it made her feel so undeserving sometimes. So when Tiffany started to secretly glance over her lips or secretly checking her out when she thought Taeyeon wasn’t looking, she wanted nothing more than to show how thankful she was by showing some affection, but sadly she didn’t know how.
So when they both decided to go to the New Year party together, she’d planned to give her a kiss for New Year, as a way of saying thank you to the younger girl and assuring her. After all, it would be awkward not to since they were a couple.
It was the perfect reason. It will be just a small kiss. It wouldn’t be that awkward… right?
…But then she saw Tiffany in front of her door in her white blouse and brown skirt, smiling widely picking her up for the party. It was the first time she saw her since she went to LA for Christmas.
In that moment, she realized that she had missed her. More than she knew.
Perhaps it was because how beautiful Tiffany looked in front of her door. She could still remember the tingling feeling that rushed through her body the moment she saw her and the sudden urge to just grab her right there and then and forget all about the New Year Party.
… or perhaps it was because of her fascination over the way Tiffany had been treating her. Ever since the night she cried her heart out, Tiffany had been nothing but a sweet and understanding girlfriend. They also got along pretty well which still surprised Taeyeon at times because of the same opinions that they often had or the stupid jokes that they shared.
Either way, it surely has pushed her to do something that was so out of her character…
… Something like last night.
A smile crept to Taeyeon’s face. Seeing that face brought her mind to last night; the same face that was so close to hers, pecking her jaw, nibbling the skin of her neck and whispering words of admiration to her ears. She still remembered the feel of their bodies pressing to each other, the sound of the bed creaking and their moans replying each other, climaxing with a pleasurable cry of Tiffany’s name from her.
She never felt like that before; the feeling of being wanted and desired with so much passion. Taeyeon knew normally Tiffany would hold back, but not last night. She could still remember how Tiffany’s hands ran along her sides or how her lips trailed kisses along her hidden mounds, sending pleasurable tingles along her body. Every little touch Tiffany gave her had awakened her inner want, igniting all of the restrained feelings that she had towards her. She had thought about having sex with Tiffany and remembered that she once thought that it would be a mere obligation, because she was her girlfriend. Because that’s what people in relationship do. Well, she had been wrong. Tiffany had made her feel like she never felt before. She knew that sex was good, but never had she thought that sex with Tiffany would be this good. Tiffany had made her feel so wanted and so... loved. And surprisingly, it felt so right. Even though it was new for her, somehow she knew it was more than just sex, but she couldn’t decipher what it was. And she didn’t dare to look more. But whatever it was, it surely had left her wanting more…
The sudden movement from her companion woke her up from her thoughts and made her freeze. She felt Tiffany shifted closer, turning her body to her. It turned out that Tiffany was still sleeping.
Taeyeon sighed in relief. She repositioned the blanket that was covering her lover’s body and moved closer to take a good look on the brunette’s face. She studied her face. She’s so beautiful. She thought.
She brushed the strands of her lover’s hair to the side with her finger and smiled, feeling a strange but pleasant tingles rushed through her body, making her shiver.
Maybe I’m starting to…
The sudden thought surprised her.
She didn’t dare. She didn’t dare to finish her thoughts.
I don’t deserve saying that...
Taeyeon shifted and moved further from her lover, making a space between them. She smiled ruefully.
“Happy New Year, Fany-ah.”
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