dance, bowling & some lyrics
I had dance class tonight for the first time in over a month. It was good to be back. Class was fun. Looks like I will get to be in the recital after all! I am excited about that. I love performing onstage. Now I just wonder what will happen if I'm invited to that wedding after all. I have this amazing black & pink strapless dress I want to wear. Guess I'll worry about it later.
My friend Jessica was in Chicago this past weekend. Unfortunately I did not get to see her. Oh well - next time! Anyway, she went bowling & posted about it: "I'm really the worst bowler on the planet...but I don't care. I have fun just throwing the ball. If it hit pins, it's a bonus...Of course I lost. By a lot. But it didn't matter. I had a great time." (hope you don't mind that I quoted you, Jessica). Why can't I be more like that? It's not that I'm real competitive or I hate to lose. I'm not sure what it is. But why can't I just have fun and not care?? That was something that always bothered the ex about me. When asked if he wished I was cooler in a MySpace survey, JT responded: "I wished you were willing to be a little goofier (like me). For example, just enjoy the silliness at Dave & Busters, tossing darts, or trying to learn to dance together." Why can't I be more like that? What is my problem? Why can't I act goofy? Why can't I go bowling and not care if I don't hit any pins? Why can't I throw darts and not care if most of the darts miss the target? Am I really not a fun person?? I need to step out of my comfort zone and let loose. Now that I have no one to hang out with, this could be a problem. But next time I go out, I am going to try to be more fun.
So I thought I was doing pretty well and then I heard this song. Damn you, 3 Doors Down!! Some of the lyrics just hit me really hard. :(
I hope you’re doing fine out there without me
'Cause I’m not doing so good without you
The things I thought you’d never know about me
Were the things I guess you always understood
So how could I have been so blind for all these years?
Guess I only see the truth through all this fear,
And living without you...
And everything I have in this world
And all that I’ll ever be
It could all fall down around me.
Just as long as I have you,
Right here by me.
I can’t take another day without you
'Cause baby, I could never make it on my own
I’ve been waiting so long, just to hold you
And to be back in your arms where I belong
Sorry I can’t always find the words to say
But everything I’ve ever known gets swept away
Inside of your love...
Here By Me - 3 Doors Down
My friend Jessica was in Chicago this past weekend. Unfortunately I did not get to see her. Oh well - next time! Anyway, she went bowling & posted about it: "I'm really the worst bowler on the planet...but I don't care. I have fun just throwing the ball. If it hit pins, it's a bonus...Of course I lost. By a lot. But it didn't matter. I had a great time." (hope you don't mind that I quoted you, Jessica). Why can't I be more like that? It's not that I'm real competitive or I hate to lose. I'm not sure what it is. But why can't I just have fun and not care?? That was something that always bothered the ex about me. When asked if he wished I was cooler in a MySpace survey, JT responded: "I wished you were willing to be a little goofier (like me). For example, just enjoy the silliness at Dave & Busters, tossing darts, or trying to learn to dance together." Why can't I be more like that? What is my problem? Why can't I act goofy? Why can't I go bowling and not care if I don't hit any pins? Why can't I throw darts and not care if most of the darts miss the target? Am I really not a fun person?? I need to step out of my comfort zone and let loose. Now that I have no one to hang out with, this could be a problem. But next time I go out, I am going to try to be more fun.
So I thought I was doing pretty well and then I heard this song. Damn you, 3 Doors Down!! Some of the lyrics just hit me really hard. :(
I hope you’re doing fine out there without me
'Cause I’m not doing so good without you
The things I thought you’d never know about me
Were the things I guess you always understood
So how could I have been so blind for all these years?
Guess I only see the truth through all this fear,
And living without you...
And everything I have in this world
And all that I’ll ever be
It could all fall down around me.
Just as long as I have you,
Right here by me.
I can’t take another day without you
'Cause baby, I could never make it on my own
I’ve been waiting so long, just to hold you
And to be back in your arms where I belong
Sorry I can’t always find the words to say
But everything I’ve ever known gets swept away
Inside of your love...
Here By Me - 3 Doors Down