i went to bed at five this morning
but it was worth it, because I ended up having an AMAZING conversation with one of my friends about family, and marriage, and God, and relationships, and everything that's been on my mind lately. What she said was so dead-on, and inspiring to me, and it was all very whoa
i am so so grateful for the conversation, because it really made me think about what i want from my future relationships and a lot of other stuff as well.
that being said, things with the boy are still dismal. I think it's for real this time. I don't think they're going to get better. I'm going to have to try and erase all the memories I had of someone i considered a really close friend and just move on. He's obviously never going to return my feelings; he doesn't even listen when i talk anymore.
i know it's spiteful and vindictive, but there's a part of me that wants him to suffer with his new girl the way he made me suffer. even half as much hurt as i've felt would be sufficient. but this is life, and so he's going to continue along his merry way and not even realize how much of a jerk he's been.
but i'm a strong girl. I can get over this, and i'll be even better afterwards. someone is going to care, eventually.
i am so so grateful for the conversation, because it really made me think about what i want from my future relationships and a lot of other stuff as well.
that being said, things with the boy are still dismal. I think it's for real this time. I don't think they're going to get better. I'm going to have to try and erase all the memories I had of someone i considered a really close friend and just move on. He's obviously never going to return my feelings; he doesn't even listen when i talk anymore.
i know it's spiteful and vindictive, but there's a part of me that wants him to suffer with his new girl the way he made me suffer. even half as much hurt as i've felt would be sufficient. but this is life, and so he's going to continue along his merry way and not even realize how much of a jerk he's been.
but i'm a strong girl. I can get over this, and i'll be even better afterwards. someone is going to care, eventually.