End of an era
Well, that's it.
Steph stayed over here last night, we had an amazing night. We had a snowball fight in the front garden before we went to work this morning, and all was good and fun. But I didn't want to potentially spoil the evening by telling her how I feel.
I phoned her tonight to tell her. I got it all out, everything. I told her I'm in love with her. She said she's been getting similar feelings for me, but at the moment she can't have anything like this in her life and that's why it has to end. She needs to spend the next few months purely concentrating on her new job and nothing else, so a boyfriend of any kind would be a distraction which she really doesn't need. I have so much respect for her and I'm so happy she's got her dream job that I understand completely where she's coming from.
She says she feels like a bitch for what she's putting me through. I've told her not to feel like that. It's my own fault for getting emotionally involved when all along she's said that once her new job came round anything romantic between us would have to end.
I'm sad, and she's sad, but at the same time I'm happy we've both taken it pretty well. We'll keep in touch as friends, I love her to bits as a mate so that'll be nice. To be honest, she's going to be so busy with her new job that even if we did go out with each other we'd hardly see each other, which would be pretty rubbish. She'll be working at least 2 weekends a month and the other 2 she'll probably be visiting her old uni mates in Sheffield, so basically we'd hardly have any opportunities to see each other.
I'll miss her so much though.
Steph stayed over here last night, we had an amazing night. We had a snowball fight in the front garden before we went to work this morning, and all was good and fun. But I didn't want to potentially spoil the evening by telling her how I feel.
I phoned her tonight to tell her. I got it all out, everything. I told her I'm in love with her. She said she's been getting similar feelings for me, but at the moment she can't have anything like this in her life and that's why it has to end. She needs to spend the next few months purely concentrating on her new job and nothing else, so a boyfriend of any kind would be a distraction which she really doesn't need. I have so much respect for her and I'm so happy she's got her dream job that I understand completely where she's coming from.
She says she feels like a bitch for what she's putting me through. I've told her not to feel like that. It's my own fault for getting emotionally involved when all along she's said that once her new job came round anything romantic between us would have to end.
I'm sad, and she's sad, but at the same time I'm happy we've both taken it pretty well. We'll keep in touch as friends, I love her to bits as a mate so that'll be nice. To be honest, she's going to be so busy with her new job that even if we did go out with each other we'd hardly see each other, which would be pretty rubbish. She'll be working at least 2 weekends a month and the other 2 she'll probably be visiting her old uni mates in Sheffield, so basically we'd hardly have any opportunities to see each other.
I'll miss her so much though.