sweetness and light
I have mixed feelings about the holidays. I have mixed feelings in general.
This semester will finally be over on Friday! Get here, pronto! Starting tomorrow I will live in the library until I feel confident to take my finals. I slacked off a bit much last week, so now I'm burning plenty of midnight oil.
Tuesday night is the Lakes' Christmas Party. I'm bringing Tristan, of course, and everyone will think I'm a dyke. That's A-OK with me. Hopefully it will go quite well, I'm slightly anxious. Perhaps I'll remember to bring my camera along for once in my life. I really need to buy a camera bag already!
I think my birth control is increasing my appetite. I actually lay awake in bed every night and try to think why I ate so much during the day. I absolutely hate the weight I've gained. I can't remember the last time I felt good about myself, even before BC came into the picture. I feel like shit all of the time. No self-esteem exists in my little head. I think I need real help with my anxiety, also, but that won't happen for a while.
I really cannot wait until I pay off my car so I can move. It's all I've got to shine some light.
This semester will finally be over on Friday! Get here, pronto! Starting tomorrow I will live in the library until I feel confident to take my finals. I slacked off a bit much last week, so now I'm burning plenty of midnight oil.
Tuesday night is the Lakes' Christmas Party. I'm bringing Tristan, of course, and everyone will think I'm a dyke. That's A-OK with me. Hopefully it will go quite well, I'm slightly anxious. Perhaps I'll remember to bring my camera along for once in my life. I really need to buy a camera bag already!
I think my birth control is increasing my appetite. I actually lay awake in bed every night and try to think why I ate so much during the day. I absolutely hate the weight I've gained. I can't remember the last time I felt good about myself, even before BC came into the picture. I feel like shit all of the time. No self-esteem exists in my little head. I think I need real help with my anxiety, also, but that won't happen for a while.
I really cannot wait until I pay off my car so I can move. It's all I've got to shine some light.