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well i dont knw what to do,,,,,,,,,,,,, i have feelings for someone but after everything i realy dont knw who he is and i cant let go,....... i have cheated on him, lied to him,hurt him, so many things and hes still around,,,,, he says he loves me but i dont knw why? i mean im 19 years old and your not suposed to fined the love of your life at 19, and he was the first person i have slept with so he took my virginity, and because of what i told my self when i was younger that the person i lose my virginity would be the man i will marry and now i dont knw whats real anymore,..... i mean hes the first thing i think about when i go to sleep and wake up thinking about and i dont knw why...... i want to date other people because we took it to far the first time and i want to take a break and see other people and just have a good time while i can without the title and all that im having trouble sorting everything out i have to many emotions running at once and i dont knw what to do............. i can never speek my mind and just say what im thinking cause sometimes it doesnt come out the way that i want and then i get more mad when the person dosent understand..... so someone please help me