odes to my estranded readers...
. . . and once again, the pensive authoress has made her appearance in the dark corners of the internet world and this is what she has to say . . .
TIME. ah, the concept of time is far-fetched, eh? it's a warp-speed whirlpool of some kind. reality whirlpool if you would. so much can happen in such a little time and that goes for the lessons you learn in times like these. lessons that are gifted to you after you move through life, lessons that may or may not be learned and only matters with time.
the downside to time is its' distractions and temptations. it is truly easy to fall into the present and just try to get through a day. eventually you forget for a moment where you wanna go or what you're going to be doing in the next 5 years. it's not like i've forgotten my dreams, which is very unlikely, its' more like the longer i stay in this working world, the more rings that attatches to the already forming chain around my ankle towards to the working world.
but, fear not, my readers, i have not given up the fire that fuels my soul. i will go to places and there will never be a chain on me whatsoever. it gets scary and lonely at times. sometimes i have no one i could really open myself up to and just dwell in it for just as long as i need to. sure, i see people everyday at work and do hang out with a gal from work, but it's all different.
these people are people who have dreams, or at some point, had dreams, but lost vision of them because of paths life has thrown them into. getting up early in the morning, going to work and work for 8 hours or more everyday, come home and take care of the kids, drink with coworkers or friends if you're lucky, go to bed, sober or drunk, but ready for work the next day. it's just the same cycle every single day and that kind of life would be suicide for me! i'm around these people who have adapted that kind of life. yes, its true, i don't know what goes on deep down inside of them, but they have kids they need to take care of and i don't know how much farther they're gonna get with the situations they're in. in a lot of ways, it feels like the longer i'm around them, the more they'll pull me into their kind of life. and that's what's scary and it makes it seem lonely.
it's christmas break for my friends from college so i get to see friends who have come home for the holidays and it has been good. i've been having a good time seeing friends and will be enjoying myself real soon as i fly to florida in 6 days. :) some free time, stimulation and company of a good friend in the sunshine state certainly would serve my poor nerves just right! ;)
well, there's a lot that got me on a train of thoughts and i could say more but i ought concede my ponderings and hit the sack since i unfortunately have to get up for work in several hours.
ah, the ironies of life, eh? ;) peace n love, ya'll . . .
TIME. ah, the concept of time is far-fetched, eh? it's a warp-speed whirlpool of some kind. reality whirlpool if you would. so much can happen in such a little time and that goes for the lessons you learn in times like these. lessons that are gifted to you after you move through life, lessons that may or may not be learned and only matters with time.
the downside to time is its' distractions and temptations. it is truly easy to fall into the present and just try to get through a day. eventually you forget for a moment where you wanna go or what you're going to be doing in the next 5 years. it's not like i've forgotten my dreams, which is very unlikely, its' more like the longer i stay in this working world, the more rings that attatches to the already forming chain around my ankle towards to the working world.
but, fear not, my readers, i have not given up the fire that fuels my soul. i will go to places and there will never be a chain on me whatsoever. it gets scary and lonely at times. sometimes i have no one i could really open myself up to and just dwell in it for just as long as i need to. sure, i see people everyday at work and do hang out with a gal from work, but it's all different.
these people are people who have dreams, or at some point, had dreams, but lost vision of them because of paths life has thrown them into. getting up early in the morning, going to work and work for 8 hours or more everyday, come home and take care of the kids, drink with coworkers or friends if you're lucky, go to bed, sober or drunk, but ready for work the next day. it's just the same cycle every single day and that kind of life would be suicide for me! i'm around these people who have adapted that kind of life. yes, its true, i don't know what goes on deep down inside of them, but they have kids they need to take care of and i don't know how much farther they're gonna get with the situations they're in. in a lot of ways, it feels like the longer i'm around them, the more they'll pull me into their kind of life. and that's what's scary and it makes it seem lonely.
it's christmas break for my friends from college so i get to see friends who have come home for the holidays and it has been good. i've been having a good time seeing friends and will be enjoying myself real soon as i fly to florida in 6 days. :) some free time, stimulation and company of a good friend in the sunshine state certainly would serve my poor nerves just right! ;)
well, there's a lot that got me on a train of thoughts and i could say more but i ought concede my ponderings and hit the sack since i unfortunately have to get up for work in several hours.
ah, the ironies of life, eh? ;) peace n love, ya'll . . .