Thaw Yas
I just realized that what is thaw backwards. This amuses me for a reason that only I can know and understand. Just felt like mentioning it so you'll be like 'huh?'.
I was watching survivor today... and my mom said something to me that really floored me at first, but then I decided that I was happy to accept the compliment.
She said something about being proud of me for having self esteem and not caring with other people think. It's partially true, but not entirely. She is also amazed at how I seem to be able to look at a situation (or disagreement between 2 or more people) and see through all the bs to the actual issue at hand and just be able to say either it's worth working out or it's a stupid misunderstanding that should just be let go. I know far too many people who react very ineptly to alot of situations... Hey, I've had my moments. Love and Fear can knock even the most strong willed and confident person down sometimes.
It was weird for me, because before watching survivor I was feeling kind of down... not sure why exactly, then one particular scene (and resulting discussion about said scene) made me happy all of a sudden.
I keep having these lapses where I doubt myself, and doubt whether my constant efforts to be noble are really worth it when it seems hardly anyone notices or cares. I'm not in it for the glory, but once in a while it would totally validate my being. Wow, did that sound shallow? Boourns to me. There's also a secret internal war I've been waging for years. One truce was called, one near victory for the home team, and now I'm back where I started, but the outlook is pretty good at the moment. But what do you care, you don't even know waht I'm talking about. Some things are just better left trapped in my psychotic irreperable little brain.
You might as well stop reading when it stops making sense. SDGADF AFGBATB DC ESR GER V. There, stop.
"Have you ever been inside of the new masterpiece?" - I'm not sure yet.
I was watching survivor today... and my mom said something to me that really floored me at first, but then I decided that I was happy to accept the compliment.
She said something about being proud of me for having self esteem and not caring with other people think. It's partially true, but not entirely. She is also amazed at how I seem to be able to look at a situation (or disagreement between 2 or more people) and see through all the bs to the actual issue at hand and just be able to say either it's worth working out or it's a stupid misunderstanding that should just be let go. I know far too many people who react very ineptly to alot of situations... Hey, I've had my moments. Love and Fear can knock even the most strong willed and confident person down sometimes.
It was weird for me, because before watching survivor I was feeling kind of down... not sure why exactly, then one particular scene (and resulting discussion about said scene) made me happy all of a sudden.
I keep having these lapses where I doubt myself, and doubt whether my constant efforts to be noble are really worth it when it seems hardly anyone notices or cares. I'm not in it for the glory, but once in a while it would totally validate my being. Wow, did that sound shallow? Boourns to me. There's also a secret internal war I've been waging for years. One truce was called, one near victory for the home team, and now I'm back where I started, but the outlook is pretty good at the moment. But what do you care, you don't even know waht I'm talking about. Some things are just better left trapped in my psychotic irreperable little brain.
You might as well stop reading when it stops making sense. SDGADF AFGBATB DC ESR GER V. There, stop.
"Have you ever been inside of the new masterpiece?" - I'm not sure yet.