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Things keep fluctuating and I've decided that I am not going to give a shit anymore about things I can't change because its not worth stressing over. I forgot this weekend was the 13th and this is when I promised my Dad that I would babysit his co-workers kids for the company Christmas party. I had also made plans to go to this party with Alicia and I had everything worked out perfect but I didn't get to go cuz I promised my Dad. That is so petty compared to what is really bothering me and has been in the back of my mind for the past few days. Ryan's parents sent him somewhere, he hasn't been in school all week and no one has heard from him, his mother hates me so she refuses to tell me where he is. All I know is that he is not in the diversion center and he will be back after christmas supposedly. I hate this, I am so worried about him and I love him to death and everything he has had to deal with this year has just been unbelievable, I can't believe that his parents would send him away. All I can do is wait until he gets back, I think that if I worry about it too much I'll go crazy so I need to just think about all the positive things. Well... Last night I worked until 9:30 and I made $47 and then I went downtown with Ann and met up with a bunch of people at Club Matrix. They knew the bouncer so I could get in, I was so glad that I went out because I was really bummed that I couldn't go to the party tonight. But yeah Friday was goooodd. Today I went horsebackriding and that was wonderful. Then Alicia and I went shopping and I bought a lot of Christmas presents. I loved buying presents, it was fun. I went and babysat and that was ok, they are sweet kids so I didn't mind. Christmas Break starts this week, yay!! I need it so much and I am finally done with calculus. I am excited to go to Auburn, NY and visit my family, for Christmas itself, the 3-Doors Down concert, and for New Years. Wow, its really 2004 and half of my senior year will be over.