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I have called Top Thai almost every-day since I have been home and Tim has not been there every single time! I need a job!!! The people there probably think I am Tim's stalker or something. If I do not hear from them soon I am calling McAllister's and Atlanta Bread. I have no resources, i.e. no money.
I am bored already, but I don't really miss SHC. I need breaks from places and people so it's good to be away for awhile. Leigh will be home in two days and I can't wait. Mary is coming home soon too. Emily will not be home till the 20th and that sucks because I want to hang out with her. Heather is in Destin all the time and is about to be moving there. I've spent time with Melissa, Ryan, and Jeffrey since I have been home. My night's out have been completely sober and consisted of going to Dakota Coffee, Wal Mart, and Lacey's apt. to watch them do drunk prank calls to their friends. Ahh Dothan! I've been sleeping so much that it's scary. I laid out by the pool yesterday and today. I actually went swimming today and it felt really nice. I went to church yesterday, it felt reassuring to be back at my home church.
I gave in. I wonder what the consequence will be, maybe nothing at all. The cycle repeats itself.
I fell out of love. Sometimes I wonder if I would have if I wasn't forced to. He let go first. I would love to make him happy. Sometimes I wonder if he ever will be, if he will allow himself. I wanted that more than anything, to be that girl that saved him. I am not that girl anymore. I let go too. He's too late.
I'm skeptical. Convince me.
I am bored already, but I don't really miss SHC. I need breaks from places and people so it's good to be away for awhile. Leigh will be home in two days and I can't wait. Mary is coming home soon too. Emily will not be home till the 20th and that sucks because I want to hang out with her. Heather is in Destin all the time and is about to be moving there. I've spent time with Melissa, Ryan, and Jeffrey since I have been home. My night's out have been completely sober and consisted of going to Dakota Coffee, Wal Mart, and Lacey's apt. to watch them do drunk prank calls to their friends. Ahh Dothan! I've been sleeping so much that it's scary. I laid out by the pool yesterday and today. I actually went swimming today and it felt really nice. I went to church yesterday, it felt reassuring to be back at my home church.
I gave in. I wonder what the consequence will be, maybe nothing at all. The cycle repeats itself.
I fell out of love. Sometimes I wonder if I would have if I wasn't forced to. He let go first. I would love to make him happy. Sometimes I wonder if he ever will be, if he will allow himself. I wanted that more than anything, to be that girl that saved him. I am not that girl anymore. I let go too. He's too late.
I'm skeptical. Convince me.