Woah, life is actually happening.
Do you ever feel like nothing important is happening and all we are doing is existing? Sometimes I feel like that. I am so ready for college and living the way I want. I am ready to be challenged and start doing new, different and exciting things. There are fun moments in my life now but a lot of the time seems like it could be spent in a more efficient way. I can't wait to study abroad, travel new places, really fall in love, and just truly live life. There is nothing in this town, nothing. The occasional magnificent people who make life here tolerable. But I am so ready for MORE. I am searching for so much. I love those days that life just seems wonderful and at the end of the day you sigh and think about how amazing that day was. I also appreciate those bad times when life just seems incredibly shitty and you wonder when it will get better because those times change you and teach you something. Every year more and more things face us and we think about how much we can handle but those things that happen that make us cry, scream, and break down seem to teach us so much. I think about my friends and how different each one is and all the choices they are making and I think about myself and what we will all end up like. I really worry sometimes, its like I am thinking the earth beneath me is going to crumble or the sky is going to fall. Overall I think positively and I get so anxious about this summer and next year. Right now my last few months of high school I would rather skip. I am sure there will be moments that I don't want to miss though. My mind keeps telling me there is so much more and that I need to go out there and get it. But too bad I can't do that just yet. Unfortunetly there are still 5 months left until graduation. I just know that when I am old I do not want to look back regretting not doing certain things. Definitely "Carpe Diem."