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I keep getting trapped in thought-cycles and I don't know what to do about them. My attempts to correct my frustrations usually just lead to more frustrations. Self-analysis reveals contradictory thoughts and motives. Laziness conquers all. I spend most of my time avoiding situations and thoughts that I know will just lead to a downward spiral. Even if everyone experiences the same thing, that doesn't mean we should have to.
Yesterday I visited my brother who is at summer school in Vermont. I enjoyed seeing him, but this is the only time we'll see each other until I get back from Argentina, and we both treated it like I was just popping by to say hello, which felt weird. There's an incredibly fancy movie theater near his school (of which I took pictures) that is all old-timey and decorated very extravagantly, with greek columns, statues, and murals. The ceiling had the zodiac painted on it, and many of the velvet-covered seats were very worn down. When I left Jason yesterday I felt like I was the one who was being left behind, alone in my room with a night of work ahead of me. The funny thing is that I don't think he felt that way at all, and was probably glad to be left alone so he could get back to his school life and his friends. I love imposing feelings on other people that they probably don't have.
Only two weeks left.
Yesterday I visited my brother who is at summer school in Vermont. I enjoyed seeing him, but this is the only time we'll see each other until I get back from Argentina, and we both treated it like I was just popping by to say hello, which felt weird. There's an incredibly fancy movie theater near his school (of which I took pictures) that is all old-timey and decorated very extravagantly, with greek columns, statues, and murals. The ceiling had the zodiac painted on it, and many of the velvet-covered seats were very worn down. When I left Jason yesterday I felt like I was the one who was being left behind, alone in my room with a night of work ahead of me. The funny thing is that I don't think he felt that way at all, and was probably glad to be left alone so he could get back to his school life and his friends. I love imposing feelings on other people that they probably don't have.
Only two weeks left.