Nov 21, 2008 00:47
I sat down tonight and wrote a 3 hour letter to Sam. It had to be done at some point, and I feel I'm at the right place now in my life that I could do this and not chicken out sending it to him. Also, I believe I'm getting through the whole ordeal one day at a time. Two and a a half months ago, I couldn't do this. I was too raw and too emotional. I still wanted to inflict pain and get revenge. Yes, trans-locating his balls to a different continent was the first in my diabolical (sp?) scheme, and it wasn't even the worst part. Lol.
Time does heal, though not in the way I thought it would. But since when does the world do what I want?
It's time to let go, and let things happen the way they are supposed to. It's time to affect my own destiny, and not sit back and wait for something to happen. (Sad, I'm using Outback's Principles and Beliefs.)
Goodnight
sam