What You All Didn't Know
More about my title in a second.
I realized why this year sucks as compared to last year. When I had days off, so did my friends and I could hang out with them. I was driving and I happened to drive by Washington Ave and West Gore, and I realized that Jay used to go across Gore to his apartment. It then dawned on me that I miss hanging out with him alot because he'd just pick me up on my days off and we'd drive around or end up at his apartment and just have dinner and watch a movie. Last year on Memorial Day, he and I ended up down at the peninsula and took pictures of the sunset. Most of those pictures are some of the best I've ever taken.
All total, I invited four different people to the house this weekend. No one responded back. *sigh* Actually, while I'm typing this, Jaime texted me and said that she didn't have her phone on her all day, and didn't get my message until now. And you all wonder why I get discouraged when things never happen right. I'm almost thinking of not taking my vacation. I qualify for it starting June 1st. I have until June 30th to take it. Why bother taking it if I'm trying to make plans and no one wants anything to do with me? I'd rather just work during my vacation and get paid my vacation pay.
Now, my title for this entry. Some of you may know that I've been working on opening up and exploring myself and my spirituality. What you all don't know is that I'm reading my tarot cards pretty regulary every week for people who ask. This means more meditation and more seeking and working with energy. This has caused me to become more emotional and more of my emotions being out there, and I'm even picking up on other's emotions. You all know me pretty well and know that I'm not that emotional. Heck, it takes alot for me to show anything. I'm not dealing with it so well, so bear with me. I'm not going to stop nor quit. This is something that I have to work on, and I'd just like my friends' support. I feel this is lacking a bit, because you're off with your own lives. What happened to us being so close and I don't mean in distance either?
Just like the sun above, even it needs a little support now and then.
I realized why this year sucks as compared to last year. When I had days off, so did my friends and I could hang out with them. I was driving and I happened to drive by Washington Ave and West Gore, and I realized that Jay used to go across Gore to his apartment. It then dawned on me that I miss hanging out with him alot because he'd just pick me up on my days off and we'd drive around or end up at his apartment and just have dinner and watch a movie. Last year on Memorial Day, he and I ended up down at the peninsula and took pictures of the sunset. Most of those pictures are some of the best I've ever taken.
All total, I invited four different people to the house this weekend. No one responded back. *sigh* Actually, while I'm typing this, Jaime texted me and said that she didn't have her phone on her all day, and didn't get my message until now. And you all wonder why I get discouraged when things never happen right. I'm almost thinking of not taking my vacation. I qualify for it starting June 1st. I have until June 30th to take it. Why bother taking it if I'm trying to make plans and no one wants anything to do with me? I'd rather just work during my vacation and get paid my vacation pay.
Now, my title for this entry. Some of you may know that I've been working on opening up and exploring myself and my spirituality. What you all don't know is that I'm reading my tarot cards pretty regulary every week for people who ask. This means more meditation and more seeking and working with energy. This has caused me to become more emotional and more of my emotions being out there, and I'm even picking up on other's emotions. You all know me pretty well and know that I'm not that emotional. Heck, it takes alot for me to show anything. I'm not dealing with it so well, so bear with me. I'm not going to stop nor quit. This is something that I have to work on, and I'd just like my friends' support. I feel this is lacking a bit, because you're off with your own lives. What happened to us being so close and I don't mean in distance either?
Just like the sun above, even it needs a little support now and then.