the boys will cry more.
my nanny will leave me soon i think.
she's being way too strong for her own good.
she's so fucking strong.
but her skin.
her skin is
so.
so.
so.
soft.
dylan held her hand for about an hour.
then i did.
she pushed my hand away after 5 mins or so..
she wanted dylan back and it was fine.
she was being strong for him.
she knew she needed to..even with half a body.and half a brain.
this has been her 4th stroke.
as well as her first heart attack.
she is 85 years old.
and i don't even recognize her bones anymore.
but her skin?
i'll never forget that.