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A year ago, if I looked at my life now, I may have not believed it was actually me living it.
Majors have been declared and changed.
Bonds have been lost and gained.
Dreams have been realized and abandoned.
Decisions have been made and doubted.
Friends have come and gone.
I have been just a bit scarred from all of this.
So, as I look into the future, wanting a new major, trying to get over an old dream, and attempting to rebuild new relationships...
... I see why "carpe diem" is so glorified in it's cliche-ness. It may be ok to look to the light at the end of the tunnel, but it is just really pointless to be looking for the next tunnel after it. The unwanted experiences and thoughtless mistakes have set me up for a potentially long road. While I have much horsepower and great traction, the road's going to be a long one. I need to absorb the past year, or two, in my shocks and look for smoother track.
And while I've been turning and accelerating ok, I only have so much fuel left.
Majors have been declared and changed.
Bonds have been lost and gained.
Dreams have been realized and abandoned.
Decisions have been made and doubted.
Friends have come and gone.
I have been just a bit scarred from all of this.
So, as I look into the future, wanting a new major, trying to get over an old dream, and attempting to rebuild new relationships...
... I see why "carpe diem" is so glorified in it's cliche-ness. It may be ok to look to the light at the end of the tunnel, but it is just really pointless to be looking for the next tunnel after it. The unwanted experiences and thoughtless mistakes have set me up for a potentially long road. While I have much horsepower and great traction, the road's going to be a long one. I need to absorb the past year, or two, in my shocks and look for smoother track.
And while I've been turning and accelerating ok, I only have so much fuel left.