not sure

[oceandrops]

you know i have just realized that this day next week i will be leaving to B-town. i know everyone things, " well she has been on a long vacation!!" but it didn't seem long at all. i know 5 wekks is long (especially when its school!!!) but when you out o have fun there is not time limit~~. or maybe its because i didn't really have fun. i know my mind was seldom in what i was doing. often it wandered of on its own and tortured me with thoughts of college and apllications and requirements and all those things. i can't help it i am always thinging about where i am going to get accepted. i am really scared. i can't have fun. i know how much i used to enjoy roller coasters just last year, but now nothing can lift up my sprits. i feel like i am bringing every one down. this was planned i can join with my family and take a break from school and stress,but it has just goten worse. oh what do i do!!!! aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i wish life would be a litte easier.