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so i think this past weekend will be the last time i take part in anything one typically associates with 'partying'. sure, it can be fun. but i miss the kind of fun i had that i didnt end up feeling guilty for. but the only problem with that is that a lot of my friends do those kind of things pretty much on a regular basis. i feel like if i stop, i'll stop being part of our group of friends. i never actually understood the concept of peer pressure until now. its not so much people telling you "hey do this if you want to hang out". its more like a personal feeling. no one is making me do anything, yet i feel like i have to. i hate this feeling and i wish i was strong enough to make the right decision. i just dont want to lose my friends.