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this was said in garden state, but i'm really looking forward to my next sadness, my next good cry. it seems like it's been looming lately, even with everything that's been so great in my life. in the back of my mind, things just aren't working out. it's just a bad feeling. my sadness has become so much more personal than my happiness. so much more. when i'm happy, i want the world to know, i want to write and yell about it. it's when i feel like i don't deserve my sadness that i find myself feeling the lowest-when things are good. it's the need for the cycle to be balanced.