life is really funny...
So after the catastrophe the other day, life isnt too bad. im slowly moving foward. i talked to jon, and the way he made things seem makes me see that maybe being together isnt really that good of an idea after all. only because when i asked him what we were doing he couldnt give me a straight answer. he doesnt want to completely be over but he doesnt want to see me and isnt calling it quits. how is that fair to me? i know it was my fault but id rather him be like okay well this is it and its over. i dont want the gray area bullshit. so, there is a plus side to all this. which i never thought there would be, or atleast not this quickly.
there was a soccer mixer (even though im no longer on the team i still go to the parties, its pretty sweet) on tuesday with APhiD. i wasnt gonna go cause i wasnt feeling great and i was upset. But my friends dragged me out. it was graffitti parry. and it was so much fun. i got drunk. met this kid who i danced with all night. and now we've hung out for the past two days. we both enjoy each others company but are in no rush to push things. which is nice. i was there till 1:30 yesterday just cuddling and it was the best ive felt in a really long time. so whatever happens. happens. but im enjoying the time now. its really just all about me and what makes me happy. and tyler is a good guy. and it doesnt hurt that hes real cute. hahaha.
10 days of school left. i cannot wait to be home for the summer. it will be absolutely amazing to see everyone. my birthday is in 4 days. ill be the big 2-0. nothing changes though haha. anyway, well i just wanted to update things. its better ;-)
there was a soccer mixer (even though im no longer on the team i still go to the parties, its pretty sweet) on tuesday with APhiD. i wasnt gonna go cause i wasnt feeling great and i was upset. But my friends dragged me out. it was graffitti parry. and it was so much fun. i got drunk. met this kid who i danced with all night. and now we've hung out for the past two days. we both enjoy each others company but are in no rush to push things. which is nice. i was there till 1:30 yesterday just cuddling and it was the best ive felt in a really long time. so whatever happens. happens. but im enjoying the time now. its really just all about me and what makes me happy. and tyler is a good guy. and it doesnt hurt that hes real cute. hahaha.
10 days of school left. i cannot wait to be home for the summer. it will be absolutely amazing to see everyone. my birthday is in 4 days. ill be the big 2-0. nothing changes though haha. anyway, well i just wanted to update things. its better ;-)