well well well...

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yesterday was complete hell..i dont know if ive ever been like that before. of course me and greg were still arguing in the morning and then i thought things were okay and we both went to work, but before he left he told me he couldnt wait to talk to me that night. when i got home i called him and he ended up going to jeff's, which kinda made me sad cuz i turned down plans for the night. then he was online at jeffs and i imed him to ask if he could get a ride to six flags because jaime couldnt drive home or whatever. and he told me i was acting tough and i was being a bitch. so i was really upset, like shaking because i really wasnt trying to be mean or bitchy. so he got off the computer and i got off too, and i talked to drew for like an hour. he got my mind off being upset, we talked till about 12:15 till greg beeped in and the fun began. he told me he was really mad at me and this and that and he didnt know how he felt about me anymore. i was like ummm..okay. like why would you end things because of a stupid fight? you know? like if you would end things on a fight i guess you didnt have that strong of a relationship anyway. then we continued talking, i ended up throwing up somewhere in that jumble. it was gross. then he was just saying how 'he was only 16 and hes just scared because im the last girl hes ever gonna be with' and i understand that but you shouldnt have ever said the word forever in the past 6 months if you dont feel that way. so we kept talking and we decidedthat we didnt wanna end things, maybe just take space from each other. like be with our friends more often and such. which i think is a good idea and will make things better. we're still together and he claims that he still loves me more than anything and that im the girl hes supposed to be with for the rest of his life, but like i dunno he was kinda contradicting himself when he was like oh i wanna be with you forever but i wish we would of met later because we're so young. i hate that shit, my parents met in high school and look how they turned out. like i dunno maybe he was just frustrated and needed time to think. i think i feel a bit better knowing that were gonna work through this and all, i just dont know what i'd do if i lost him. hes my best friend and my boyfriend and like my other half. he just means way too much to me for us to end things.

sigh...

jaime is supposed to be here to pick me up for breakfast, where oh where can she be..then down to rowan tonight to visit the school. tomorrow is work 7-close, and thursday is work 12-5. hopefully greg will change his mind about hanging out on thursday, i dont know why we cant see each other then. whatever, i just want him to be happy.

ive got nothing else to write.
later..