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[ocean_dreams_xo]

today ... ahh not a good day
the highlight of my day was lunch ... cuz lauren made me laugh. yeah, that 'trashguy' wow. thanks lauren.

everyday i wonder...
why...
i'm sorry that i make you feel this way.

i can no longer put how i feel into words, i used to be able to ... but now my thoughts go so unbelievably deep than i would ever have expected, and very few people know that.

im glad that i am there to help people when they need it...but do i even help at all?

i feel so horrible sometimes. im sorry for all the messed up things ive done and said. no ones perfect, we are all human. lets let go of our mistakes and move past them. nobody said that caring was easy, its not. but if i ever turn you and your dreams away...no.

my friends mean so much to me. i dont think any of them understand. you guys are my world ... and if anything ever happens i am there. i will try to be there. you dont. if anyone says anything that will hurt them ... well ... yeah you get my point. i seriously love you guys TO DEATH. and i need y'all ... dont ever leave me