lack of self esteem...part 24454333........
So, I realized one of the reasons why I have such low self esteem, about my looks, personality, intelligence, etc. But for right now, it’s the whole ‘looks’ thing.
Maybe I am overreacting, like I some times do, but…how many of you would feel hurt if your mom called you ugly?
Heh….my mom doesn’t call ‘ALL’ of me ugly, but, parts of me,. Lol I know that sounds funny. For an example, I told my mom that I was dying my hair black, she tells me….don’t do that, you will look ugly. I did it anyway, and she told me I looked beautiful, was she telling the truth, even though she said it would look ugly, or was she just trying to compliment me and make me feel better?
She said the same things about my tattoo and other piercing….but with those she never told me that they looked good or anything like that.
But ya I told her about my next piercing expedition, and she told me that I would look ugly with it, and I would screw up my beautiful face….HUH? lol I asked if she would kick me outa the house (again) if I came home with it done, she said no…I was surprised, but she did say she would take my car keys away from me…um hello…it’s MY car…sure she gave me some money to help me buy it, but the other money was MINE! And I pay everything on it, so fuck that…but ya she’s like I won’t take u to work or school or anything, I’m like that’s fine I’ll just fucking walk there. Exercise is good. But ya then I told her that I would appreciate it if she didn’t say I will look ugly with something even before I get it, cuz she doesn’t no if I will, I don’t even no…but trial and error man…that’s what it’s all about…but ya,…I told her that she hurt my feelings all those times, then I walked off, and I haven’t talked to her since…but ya soo….what pissed me off even more was that she brought up my xbf that has this piercing, and was saying shit about it, and I’m like fuck u asshole, do not bring him into this. ARG!
It’s funny how one thing, can affect everything else….The whole thing with my mom basicly calling me ugly made me really touchy feely with everything else..
On AIM…no one was talking to me, so I felt neglected and depressed, and unloved…and worthless….usually I would be like …meh whatever, no one wants to talk, that’s fine…but this time….i almost wanted to cry…
What a fucking weirdo I am.
What do you have to say about this,….and I overreacting….blowing things way out of proportion like I usually do?
Maybe I am overreacting, like I some times do, but…how many of you would feel hurt if your mom called you ugly?
Heh….my mom doesn’t call ‘ALL’ of me ugly, but, parts of me,. Lol I know that sounds funny. For an example, I told my mom that I was dying my hair black, she tells me….don’t do that, you will look ugly. I did it anyway, and she told me I looked beautiful, was she telling the truth, even though she said it would look ugly, or was she just trying to compliment me and make me feel better?
She said the same things about my tattoo and other piercing….but with those she never told me that they looked good or anything like that.
But ya I told her about my next piercing expedition, and she told me that I would look ugly with it, and I would screw up my beautiful face….HUH? lol I asked if she would kick me outa the house (again) if I came home with it done, she said no…I was surprised, but she did say she would take my car keys away from me…um hello…it’s MY car…sure she gave me some money to help me buy it, but the other money was MINE! And I pay everything on it, so fuck that…but ya she’s like I won’t take u to work or school or anything, I’m like that’s fine I’ll just fucking walk there. Exercise is good. But ya then I told her that I would appreciate it if she didn’t say I will look ugly with something even before I get it, cuz she doesn’t no if I will, I don’t even no…but trial and error man…that’s what it’s all about…but ya,…I told her that she hurt my feelings all those times, then I walked off, and I haven’t talked to her since…but ya soo….what pissed me off even more was that she brought up my xbf that has this piercing, and was saying shit about it, and I’m like fuck u asshole, do not bring him into this. ARG!
It’s funny how one thing, can affect everything else….The whole thing with my mom basicly calling me ugly made me really touchy feely with everything else..
On AIM…no one was talking to me, so I felt neglected and depressed, and unloved…and worthless….usually I would be like …meh whatever, no one wants to talk, that’s fine…but this time….i almost wanted to cry…
What a fucking weirdo I am.
What do you have to say about this,….and I overreacting….blowing things way out of proportion like I usually do?