wasting useless energy on passions that aren't worth it
ya soo....Missi wants me to be more positive....we'll try this....the other day i wrote a list of positives on here, but it got deleted, or didn't work..I wasn't TOO TOO pissed off...but I was to lazy to rewrite it, so screw it i'm not doing it.
Lets see....this weeks been extremely stupid and pointless in school. Sucks major ass. Turned in my history paper, and finished a bunch of tests and quizs and projects...so got that stress off my shoulders. and I got my Midterm grades back....*gulp* lowest grade is a B though...so I guess that's not bad...:| heh... here's my 'positive' news Missi: I was accepted into FNHS...'French National Honors Society' but you know what sucks...to get accepted into NHS 'National Honors Society' you have to have a 3.75...when last year you only had to have a 3.5...and guess what Bree has...a 3.6...wonderful eh? oh well I guess...maybe i'll get the 3.75 this semester and get accepted. I guess we'll see though.
Um this weekend...flipping busy as hell....Tomorrow: Battle of the Bands at WHS...Beckys flippin out cuz she gets to see Adam. haha, poor girl. yesterday Jessica and I were driving behind Mike, so we decided to follow him to see where he went, because neither of us wanted to go home...So we followed him to his friend coreys house...well it turns out that they were having band practice for Battle of the Bands tomorrow, so...we watched for a lil bit, Adam was giving me a few tips with guitar and stuff. so that was cool, he's an amazing guitar player, so I just kinda stood there watching, mouth open. haha. it was fun though.
Saterday: I have stupid stupid STUPID Solo/Ensamble Contest:(:(:( I really don't want to go. It's a waste of a Saterday...But ya at least I don' thave to take the 630Am bus like Mike does ( HA sucka) I get to take the 12pm one...My 'flute quartet' that sucks sooo bad it's funny, plays in front of the judges at 2:56...then everyone gets on the bus around 4 to come back to wonderful Woodstock:| But ya...so it's only about 4 hours i Have to be there...not SOO bad.
Sunday: is my mommas birthday...hopefully after the stupid band thing I will go to Crystal Lake, to best buy, or something and buy her something:| but ya marissa is coming down again:D yay! then we're going to red lobster.!
Monday: The start of soccer try outs....I'm actually nervous:( I'm, afraid I won't make varsity, or make it at all!! Blah...but have try outs all the way until friday...But Thursday i have a stupid band concert, GOD when will the stupid band shit end? But ya...next weekend I don't have plans I don't think...
Monday we have a half day....then Wed. we have a manditory meeting for the Global fest trip...then Friday we leave early in the morning (YAY GET TO MISS SCHOOL) Then we don't get back till late Sat.....it' will be wonderful...Klit-z ( that's beckys nickname) and Jess and me...all in a hotel room together..MUAHAHAH. oh ya and with a swimming pool and hot tub...pray for hot guys to be there to hook up with!
Then after that weekend go to school for like..3 days then it's SPRING BREAK!! WOOWOO....Jess Klit-z and I are going on a 6 hour road trip to....THE MALL OF AMERICA!!! WOOTWOOT...for 4 days...ahhhhhh so awsome:D it'll kick ass, hopefully there will be extremly hot guys there too ;) and a nice hotel and shit, with a continental breakfest of course:d mmm dougnuts...
ok...so...Minutes ago...I find out that a guy I went out with last Friday...I don't know if you would consider it a date or what...but he just told me...": i think yur cool, and pretty cute...but i cant look past the fact on how u dress...i thought i could but i guess im to materialistic, and shallow...i cant ever see being more than friiends with you".......after reading that....I found myself crying...not for 'him' or the fact that he doesn't like me or whatever but because of the fact that I can't get a guy to like me for me....they all want to change me some how. Everyone seems to want to change me...(and MIssi don't leave me a comment saying i'm putting a fucking negative swing on this.) But...it's like everyone thinks I'm a freak, or some type of mutant...No guy can like me for me.....I'm just me....why can't people of society look past clothes...clothes are just a layer, another gaurd...people are so fucking stupid I hate them alll FUCKING SHIT ASSHOLES BITCHES....sorry:| But heh...I don't know...then i started crying because I was thinking of matt...dunno how he really fits into the equation..probably because he accepted me for me...We would joke around all the time about him being 'punk' and me being 'goth'...and we were ok with the label people gave us...because we looked past the clothes...people just kill me....i mean people who i thought were friends.... Here..I'll show you how people really are:
=: i can see why ur mad
MadScientist0429: i sure as fuckin hell have a right to be mad
Klade: explosive
: i hate to tell u bree but ur not the only one in the world with probs
MadScientist0429: HAHHAHAHHH HOLY FUCKING SHIT
MadScientist0429: FUCK YOU
MadScientist0429: just fuck you
MadScientist0429: i don't wanna tlak to you
Do I have a right to be mad about that? Of course I know I'm not th eonly one with problems, and the world does not revolve around me...but this is America....Freedom of speech? I can rant and rave about my problems to make myself feel a little better can't I? I'm not totally self absorbed.
oh ya and this one...
: it's the price you pay for being different...
emptee_inside29 : wow
emptee_inside29 : NO ONE SHOULD HAVE TO PAY A FUCKING PRICE
What the hell....am I over analyzing this all? or do I have a right to be upset with these people for what they're saying?
whatever...peace easy