Who am I Kidding? - B
Who am I kidding?
Is it me, or is it this world that's pushing me
through a never ending, dark hole?
Setting trap for myself with every breath I take
as an image of desperation through these eyes
Maybe not, maybe a new image of hope, of change
of something new, not to be judge by the past
I know what I see, what I hear,and what is true,
You see, you know how to make people laugh
but at this point in life, I hope this is not a joke
maybe it's your biggest fear that people
would never take your seriously
But you see, I been fooled and lied to
and don't blame me if I think this is joke
This is not real. who am i kidding?
You're out of my league
I see the shame in her eyes,
I hear the disappointment in her voice
Lowering and shaking her head
as an "I can't believe you're doing this again"
"Haven't you learned, who are you kidding?"
"Don't set your lame sorry ass in trap you can never get out of"
And so, I will just paint that fake smile on my tired face
and let the bright light shines through the dark eyes
To lead me to nowhere, but rather I will just stand here
in one place, not moving, not thinking, not feeling
Numbing, and burying all emotions alive.
Who am I kidding?
Is it me, or is it this world that's pushing me
through a never ending, dark hole?
Setting trap for myself with every breath I take
as an image of desperation through these eyes
Maybe not, maybe a new image of hope, of change
of something new, not to be judge by the past
I know what I see, what I hear,and what is true,
You see, you know how to make people laugh
but at this point in life, I hope this is not a joke
maybe it's your biggest fear that people
would never take your seriously
But you see, I been fooled and lied to
and don't blame me if I think this is joke
This is not real. who am i kidding?
You're out of my league
I see the shame in her eyes,
I hear the disappointment in her voice
Lowering and shaking her head
as an "I can't believe you're doing this again"
"Haven't you learned, who are you kidding?"
"Don't set your lame sorry ass in trap you can never get out of"
And so, I will just paint that fake smile on my tired face
and let the bright light shines through the dark eyes
To lead me to nowhere, but rather I will just stand here
in one place, not moving, not thinking, not feeling
Numbing, and burying all emotions alive.
Who am I kidding?