You wouldn't know a good thing if it came up and slit your throat...
I really need to stop having a sense of humor about myself. I'm one of those people that can generally laugh about my shortcomings... but people seem to think that this quality about me opens the door to them insulting me to my face. Two more things were said yesterday that just ....... hurt.
I was joking to one of my coworkers about why I hadn't had any of the cookies in the breakroom. I said something along the lines of "I can't have a bite, because then I will eat five [cookies]. I've decided that I am a binge eater. Ha ha." To which my coworker replied something along the lines of, "Oh, I thought we had that established a long time ago," or "I could've told you that a long time ago." The thing is, it's the same coworker that I usually joke with about my eating habits, but for some reason, his comment last night just went too far.
Then, while my coworker/friend and I were getting ready to go out (because it was her 21st bday yesterday), I was trying on different shirts of hers and I had left mine in the living room. Her boyfriend came over and I had to walk out to the living room with just my pants and a bra on, and I paused, asking her "will he mind if I just walk out there like this?" And do you know what she said? She said, "He's seen better." You're joking, right? I looked back at her to see if she was (joking, I mean), and to my horror... she wasn't. She was dead serious. And she said it like it was no big deal, like saying something like that to ANYBODY was just matter-of-fact and not completely hurtful. Of course, me, I just brushed it off and tried to forget it...
I hate my friends. Or lack thereof apparently.
Oh...and one more thing. We have this guy at work. He's not that attractive...but he is one of those brash, balsy kind of guys that seems so confident you can't help but be attracted, you know? And even though I love my boyfriend, it is always nice to know that other people find you attractive. Not as a backup plan or anything like that... just a self-esteem boost, right? Well, when he first started working here, him and I had major issues. I hated him for various reasons and he hated me for various reasons... we finally had to sit down with our manager and have a mediated convo so that the tension could be eased in some way. Well, after the talk I felt like things got better drastically and I actually started to enjoy working with him and I thought that he felt the same way. So last night, while my newly-21-yr.-old coworker/friend and I were out, she confided in me that, first of all, they have slept together 3 or 4 times, and second of all, he still hates my guts. I was hurt by that because I almost felt that our friendship (his and mine) was getting TOO close, if you know what I mean. I kinda felt like he was flirting a little bit... which I didn't mind too much... I just didn't reciprocate. But to know that it was all an act hurts my feelings. It always feels nice to have someone pay attention to you and make you feel like you are attractive, you know? And now I just feel like dirt.
To summarize: yesterday was a bitch of a day.
I was joking to one of my coworkers about why I hadn't had any of the cookies in the breakroom. I said something along the lines of "I can't have a bite, because then I will eat five [cookies]. I've decided that I am a binge eater. Ha ha." To which my coworker replied something along the lines of, "Oh, I thought we had that established a long time ago," or "I could've told you that a long time ago." The thing is, it's the same coworker that I usually joke with about my eating habits, but for some reason, his comment last night just went too far.
Then, while my coworker/friend and I were getting ready to go out (because it was her 21st bday yesterday), I was trying on different shirts of hers and I had left mine in the living room. Her boyfriend came over and I had to walk out to the living room with just my pants and a bra on, and I paused, asking her "will he mind if I just walk out there like this?" And do you know what she said? She said, "He's seen better." You're joking, right? I looked back at her to see if she was (joking, I mean), and to my horror... she wasn't. She was dead serious. And she said it like it was no big deal, like saying something like that to ANYBODY was just matter-of-fact and not completely hurtful. Of course, me, I just brushed it off and tried to forget it...
I hate my friends. Or lack thereof apparently.
Oh...and one more thing. We have this guy at work. He's not that attractive...but he is one of those brash, balsy kind of guys that seems so confident you can't help but be attracted, you know? And even though I love my boyfriend, it is always nice to know that other people find you attractive. Not as a backup plan or anything like that... just a self-esteem boost, right? Well, when he first started working here, him and I had major issues. I hated him for various reasons and he hated me for various reasons... we finally had to sit down with our manager and have a mediated convo so that the tension could be eased in some way. Well, after the talk I felt like things got better drastically and I actually started to enjoy working with him and I thought that he felt the same way. So last night, while my newly-21-yr.-old coworker/friend and I were out, she confided in me that, first of all, they have slept together 3 or 4 times, and second of all, he still hates my guts. I was hurt by that because I almost felt that our friendship (his and mine) was getting TOO close, if you know what I mean. I kinda felt like he was flirting a little bit... which I didn't mind too much... I just didn't reciprocate. But to know that it was all an act hurts my feelings. It always feels nice to have someone pay attention to you and make you feel like you are attractive, you know? And now I just feel like dirt.
To summarize: yesterday was a bitch of a day.