[OOC] dropping meme.
Juuust trying to get my thoughts in order.
Sakuraba is fine. Sakuraba, I'm finding, always is fine. Surprisingly, he's not boring to me! After a year, I tend to get "=/" and drop characters, and Sakuraba's coming up on the two year mark. Somehow, for me, his threads are always different than my other characters' threads. This might be because he isn't an asshole like most of them! (except for Akihiko. and Heisuke. and- anyway) But I looove making new relationships with him. His threads with Ciel helped revive my interest in him in the fall, and recently, I had a lot of fun tossing him at Abe, and then going back and poking at Dee. No matter what, he's always easy but still ... fun. I worry every now and then because he's been in camp for so long and so much has happened, and- characters grow! Buuut after reviewing his bits in canon, I tend to feel better. He'll probably get dropped eventually, one of these days, but he can survive his entire cast dropping now and be perfectly fine.
Edgeworth is doing a lot better. I still have trouble throwing him out into posts, but that's now not so much an issue of "oh god I feel so insecure with him" but "uhh how should I toss lawyer into this post." Luckily, my canonmates post a lot. :|d And I'm slowly getting better at that! I'm definitely more comfortable with his voice after a canon replay, and I feel like I can thread with him without taking forever, which is ... how he was for awhile there. Edgeworth really is more of a poster because of the whole "lol how does i comment??" problem above, but then I ... hate posting on my own. DILEMMA. He's the one where I need to just sit down one of these days and think up post ideas for him, so I can toss one up on a slow day.
Hei was a character that I worried about for awhile. It wasn't that I felt like I lost his voice, but- well, I talked about it in my state of the union meme here. I feel like I've done a lot of what I wanted to do with Hei, and he has this "played out" feeling. I'm more inclined to pull out Break or Kid than I am Hei. But I've found that when I do pull Hei out, I enjoy his threads and can get back into the groove. I recently redid his icons (note to self: get to milady's "special present" soon), and by redid, I mean wiped out his set and reupped them. In order. And am almost finished redoing his keywords. Hei is a character now where he has to be the only one I'm playing at that moment for me to really ... play him. But I love him when he does get out, so! I just need to get used to the idea of him being a backburner.
However, if the GL cast ever goes, Hei will probably go as well. ):
Akihiko. Oh Akihiko. He was my problem child for so long. I had voice issues, I had anxiety over playing him and everything. SOME OF MY AKIHIKO ISSUES WERE VERY DUMB, and I won't even get into them. But at some point, I just felt like ... I couldn't do it and that I had completely lost him. I'd even talked with Mitsuru and Shinjiro about dropping Akihiko, and even, uh, had a minor breakdown in Shinjiro's general direction when it came to thinking about playing him. It made me sick to my stomach for a bit!
... until I replayed canon and realized that I still loved the game and still loved the character a lot and, goddamnit, I can play the character. I basically sucked it up and decided that I wouldn't drop him because I can play him, damnit, and I haven't really done as much as I've wanted to with him yet because of my stupid anxiety and other issues. So I PMed Shinjiro with something to the effect of "PS. NOT DROPPIN' AKIHIKO. LET'S DO STUFF. RIGHT NOW!!!1"
And ... I feel better about him! Replaying canon makes me feel better with his voice, and forcing myself to play him makes me feel better about his character as a whole. It's still- difficult at times, in that I have to really think, when I'm a player who likes to reply within minutes. MY GOAL NOW IS TO GET HIM TO TALK WITH MORE PEOPLE. PARTICULARLY PEOPLE THAT AREN'T CANONMATES. If he talks with at least one new person every week or so, I will be pleased.
Also, also. APP FROM TRINITY SOUL. FOR COUNSELORS. It would be hilarious, guys.
Break is also fine. N-new primary get?? Although I've been rotating them recently. It surprises me that Break comes so easily, because he's a very tricky character. I struggled with his voice in the app, but I've had no issues when actually playing him. The only thing is that he is a high energy character in some respects, and I feel completely burned out after playing him nonstop for a month and a half. HOWEVER, he also did a lot in that month and a half, so I suspect it's just me recovering from playing this completely different character. He's tiring, but he's also a lot of fun. I still suspect that Sakuraba will outlast him, but then again, I think Sakuraba will outlast my entire current set.
Death the Kid is the new one, and I'm still trying to find my footing with him. He's coming easier than I thought he would, especially since he's a type that I worried a little bit about me actually playing. Kid sort of- pisses people off! And he can be combative! He never really holds grudges (like. ever.), but he'll yell right back at someone yelling at him and berate them, and this is a character type that I've had ~problems~ with in the past. It's a bit of a challenge for me! So I'm slowly easing him out and getting used to that. I am kind of thread-droppy with him which isn't cool, but I'm working on fixing that!
Which ... brings me to Heisuke. I'll say this right now: if we don't get a Shinpachi or Sanosuke for counselors, Heisuke will probably be gone within a month. I'd never say 100% for certain that he would! Because two of my big supposed drops have completely turned around. But Heisuke is getting increasingly difficult to play without those two, and to fix that, he'd require a looot more energy than I ... really have, honestly. So. IF YOU ARE PLANNING ON APPING PEACEMAKER FOR COUNSELORS, NOW'S THE TIME TO TELL ME.
Surprisingly, I'm not that upset about the thought of having to drop him. I knew it'd be an issue when I apped him and it really all depended on how his first month or so went. He started off well! But I got slammed with some RL stuff that really sapped at my motivation to play him. I like him a lot, but the minute he becomes too difficult, he's getting dropped.
Sakuraba is fine. Sakuraba, I'm finding, always is fine. Surprisingly, he's not boring to me! After a year, I tend to get "=/" and drop characters, and Sakuraba's coming up on the two year mark. Somehow, for me, his threads are always different than my other characters' threads. This might be because he isn't an asshole like most of them! (except for Akihiko. and Heisuke. and- anyway) But I looove making new relationships with him. His threads with Ciel helped revive my interest in him in the fall, and recently, I had a lot of fun tossing him at Abe, and then going back and poking at Dee. No matter what, he's always easy but still ... fun. I worry every now and then because he's been in camp for so long and so much has happened, and- characters grow! Buuut after reviewing his bits in canon, I tend to feel better. He'll probably get dropped eventually, one of these days, but he can survive his entire cast dropping now and be perfectly fine.
Edgeworth is doing a lot better. I still have trouble throwing him out into posts, but that's now not so much an issue of "oh god I feel so insecure with him" but "uhh how should I toss lawyer into this post." Luckily, my canonmates post a lot. :|d And I'm slowly getting better at that! I'm definitely more comfortable with his voice after a canon replay, and I feel like I can thread with him without taking forever, which is ... how he was for awhile there. Edgeworth really is more of a poster because of the whole "lol how does i comment??" problem above, but then I ... hate posting on my own. DILEMMA. He's the one where I need to just sit down one of these days and think up post ideas for him, so I can toss one up on a slow day.
Hei was a character that I worried about for awhile. It wasn't that I felt like I lost his voice, but- well, I talked about it in my state of the union meme here. I feel like I've done a lot of what I wanted to do with Hei, and he has this "played out" feeling. I'm more inclined to pull out Break or Kid than I am Hei. But I've found that when I do pull Hei out, I enjoy his threads and can get back into the groove. I recently redid his icons (note to self: get to milady's "special present" soon), and by redid, I mean wiped out his set and reupped them. In order. And am almost finished redoing his keywords. Hei is a character now where he has to be the only one I'm playing at that moment for me to really ... play him. But I love him when he does get out, so! I just need to get used to the idea of him being a backburner.
However, if the GL cast ever goes, Hei will probably go as well. ):
Akihiko. Oh Akihiko. He was my problem child for so long. I had voice issues, I had anxiety over playing him and everything. SOME OF MY AKIHIKO ISSUES WERE VERY DUMB, and I won't even get into them. But at some point, I just felt like ... I couldn't do it and that I had completely lost him. I'd even talked with Mitsuru and Shinjiro about dropping Akihiko, and even, uh, had a minor breakdown in Shinjiro's general direction when it came to thinking about playing him. It made me sick to my stomach for a bit!
... until I replayed canon and realized that I still loved the game and still loved the character a lot and, goddamnit, I can play the character. I basically sucked it up and decided that I wouldn't drop him because I can play him, damnit, and I haven't really done as much as I've wanted to with him yet because of my stupid anxiety and other issues. So I PMed Shinjiro with something to the effect of "PS. NOT DROPPIN' AKIHIKO. LET'S DO STUFF. RIGHT NOW!!!1"
And ... I feel better about him! Replaying canon makes me feel better with his voice, and forcing myself to play him makes me feel better about his character as a whole. It's still- difficult at times, in that I have to really think, when I'm a player who likes to reply within minutes. MY GOAL NOW IS TO GET HIM TO TALK WITH MORE PEOPLE. PARTICULARLY PEOPLE THAT AREN'T CANONMATES. If he talks with at least one new person every week or so, I will be pleased.
Also, also. APP FROM TRINITY SOUL. FOR COUNSELORS. It would be hilarious, guys.
Break is also fine. N-new primary get?? Although I've been rotating them recently. It surprises me that Break comes so easily, because he's a very tricky character. I struggled with his voice in the app, but I've had no issues when actually playing him. The only thing is that he is a high energy character in some respects, and I feel completely burned out after playing him nonstop for a month and a half. HOWEVER, he also did a lot in that month and a half, so I suspect it's just me recovering from playing this completely different character. He's tiring, but he's also a lot of fun. I still suspect that Sakuraba will outlast him, but then again, I think Sakuraba will outlast my entire current set.
Death the Kid is the new one, and I'm still trying to find my footing with him. He's coming easier than I thought he would, especially since he's a type that I worried a little bit about me actually playing. Kid sort of- pisses people off! And he can be combative! He never really holds grudges (like. ever.), but he'll yell right back at someone yelling at him and berate them, and this is a character type that I've had ~problems~ with in the past. It's a bit of a challenge for me! So I'm slowly easing him out and getting used to that. I am kind of thread-droppy with him which isn't cool, but I'm working on fixing that!
Which ... brings me to Heisuke. I'll say this right now: if we don't get a Shinpachi or Sanosuke for counselors, Heisuke will probably be gone within a month. I'd never say 100% for certain that he would! Because two of my big supposed drops have completely turned around. But Heisuke is getting increasingly difficult to play without those two, and to fix that, he'd require a looot more energy than I ... really have, honestly. So. IF YOU ARE PLANNING ON APPING PEACEMAKER FOR COUNSELORS, NOW'S THE TIME TO TELL ME.
Surprisingly, I'm not that upset about the thought of having to drop him. I knew it'd be an issue when I apped him and it really all depended on how his first month or so went. He started off well! But I got slammed with some RL stuff that really sapped at my motivation to play him. I like him a lot, but the minute he becomes too difficult, he's getting dropped.