Wow
Well I have totally been avoiding this thing, I guess on purpose...I have had a flood of feelings and things going on, and when I feel overwhelmed...I avoid. That is annoying to me, because discussing and venting would surely help...I guess that is my coping mechanism--avoidance. Not that life has been horrible, just crazy. For example, the whole situation with the landlord dying...possibly suicide...totally freaky, not to mention stressful. Not trying to sound unsympathetic or to downplay that he died, but now we don't know what is going on...we are waiting to hear from the mortage company to find out if we have to leave ASAP or if we have time. In the meantime, we are thinking to move out to round rock or at least near Austin, but that is stressful because what if it takes me forever to get a job out there? then I have to drive my ass to Killeen everyday...that will be more money in gas...and I need to make more money to help with rent and all that. I just want life to work out and for us to be setttled. And Amber needs to decide to go to school or work first, and to tell her parents. I feel for her...they treat her like she is 12. She is stressed about telling them that she is moving and all that...just craziness.
Of course, we are excited to move and start over in a WAY COOLER AREA, but all the stress that comes with it is crazy! Especially when it is coming on all at once...I am sure it will work out, but just worrying a bit.
Also, I was thinking yesterday about all the stuff that I am sure I will miss since I am in Texas...My sister is due in May, Jenny graduates in May or June, Mandy's wedding in July, high school reunion in Nov. and Christmas in Dec. I guess I will have to pick one or two of these things to attend. The price of moving...
I am so whining today...Just praying things calm down and all work out.
Oh the bright side...I have met a cool person in VERN...I like to call her Vern. She is really cool to talk to, and I haven't really felt like I have met any friends in Texas that I totally click with...I mean some have been fun to hang with, but none of them (with the exception of my love--Amber)have seemed to be the type of person that is a true friend. So I am grateful for that, and look forward to one day hanging out.
That's all for now...until later
Of course, we are excited to move and start over in a WAY COOLER AREA, but all the stress that comes with it is crazy! Especially when it is coming on all at once...I am sure it will work out, but just worrying a bit.
Also, I was thinking yesterday about all the stuff that I am sure I will miss since I am in Texas...My sister is due in May, Jenny graduates in May or June, Mandy's wedding in July, high school reunion in Nov. and Christmas in Dec. I guess I will have to pick one or two of these things to attend. The price of moving...
I am so whining today...Just praying things calm down and all work out.
Oh the bright side...I have met a cool person in VERN...I like to call her Vern. She is really cool to talk to, and I haven't really felt like I have met any friends in Texas that I totally click with...I mean some have been fun to hang with, but none of them (with the exception of my love--Amber)have seemed to be the type of person that is a true friend. So I am grateful for that, and look forward to one day hanging out.
That's all for now...until later