Wrong w/ me....
I don't know how I can be so down tonight. I had a great time with my friends yesterday; it was the first time I've had that much fun all summer. I guess six staggered hours of sleep didn't help much, not to mention all I've done today is babysit and go to the dentist. So my mouth hurts and I'm really sleepy, and basically I have no idea what I want to do with my life.....
Next spring I either wanted to do the musical or track; I've changed my mind, I don't want to do the musical at all I know I won't have fun doing it with my sister gone and no friends. Everbody's telling me I hated track and as much as I don't want to, I'm going to listen to them because they probably remember better than me. So what am I going to do next spring? I want to do something athletic because I'm sick of never being in shape and I want to be healthier, but I'm not good at anything sportsy.... Ahh there's nothing for me to do at the school I can't do soccer or swimming or tennis or dance or ANYTHING. I've run out of everything. I wish i had somebody to run with me so I would have more motivation. If someone would then I would have more interest in it. The problem is I'm a really slow runner so most people run faster than me and asking them to slow down for me isn't the answer; working a lot harder is, but even during track I was working as hard as everyone else and was still the slowest one on the team. And everything is so gosh dang expensive and nobody seems to have the same interests as me anymore so I feel kind of on my own. I mean I"m not a dancer or anything. I don't know. I"m just feeling alone tonight.
Next spring I either wanted to do the musical or track; I've changed my mind, I don't want to do the musical at all I know I won't have fun doing it with my sister gone and no friends. Everbody's telling me I hated track and as much as I don't want to, I'm going to listen to them because they probably remember better than me. So what am I going to do next spring? I want to do something athletic because I'm sick of never being in shape and I want to be healthier, but I'm not good at anything sportsy.... Ahh there's nothing for me to do at the school I can't do soccer or swimming or tennis or dance or ANYTHING. I've run out of everything. I wish i had somebody to run with me so I would have more motivation. If someone would then I would have more interest in it. The problem is I'm a really slow runner so most people run faster than me and asking them to slow down for me isn't the answer; working a lot harder is, but even during track I was working as hard as everyone else and was still the slowest one on the team. And everything is so gosh dang expensive and nobody seems to have the same interests as me anymore so I feel kind of on my own. I mean I"m not a dancer or anything. I don't know. I"m just feeling alone tonight.