Selfish Me
Why is it that even when my friends and me stay up until 4:45 in the morning and they spend fifteen minutes telling me good things about myself I still don't like me.....
situations get even worse when I feel caught in the middle between my best friend and Chris Haak...... and i really wish i would just stop eating so then i could actually be hungry when i eat.....instead i eat potato oles and icre cream and half a pancake and a latte and then i'm not hungry for dinner but i'll eat it anyway and then not feel good about myself again i will run tonight and hopefully feel better
and i have homework and piano practice and voice lesson practice and running and cleaning of my house because it's driving me crazy and there's only five hours left until 11:30 and i'm setting my bedtime at that cuz that's when i go to bed anyway
i'm really not as depressed as this sounds so i don't know why i'm writing like this
i will stop now before it sounds even worse....
situations get even worse when I feel caught in the middle between my best friend and Chris Haak...... and i really wish i would just stop eating so then i could actually be hungry when i eat.....instead i eat potato oles and icre cream and half a pancake and a latte and then i'm not hungry for dinner but i'll eat it anyway and then not feel good about myself again i will run tonight and hopefully feel better
and i have homework and piano practice and voice lesson practice and running and cleaning of my house because it's driving me crazy and there's only five hours left until 11:30 and i'm setting my bedtime at that cuz that's when i go to bed anyway
i'm really not as depressed as this sounds so i don't know why i'm writing like this
i will stop now before it sounds even worse....