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I'm so aggravated.....I was trying to lose weight before Homecoming, and instead I just feel like I'm gaining a lot. I try so hard to be comfortable with my body, but it's really hard when my friends are all so skinny..... I just want to be pretty and have guys like me and I know appearances don't matter at all....it's just really hard to have three guys sitting at your chemistry table and they all like your best friend and none of them like you.... And I'm so bored I wish I had done swimming or cross country, I'd be more in shape and the only reason I didn't really was because I thought I might try out for all-state and because I wanted to keep my grades up.....well I didn't make the cut for all-state, and my grades are bad anyway so I should just have done them.
I'm so irrated and I don't know how to help myself. Just one of those nights when I really don't like myself.