.misery loves company.
i suppose many new things have happened recently. i started my "career" (please laugh here) at wal*mart in avon. i've been working the past four nights there (third shift), and the friday night at athena's. i was supposed to work at athena's tonight, however i slept in and never called. i've been so fucking sick it is beyond ridiculous. (and no this is NOT a "jen the hypochondriact episode" this one was for real) i had brian take me to the emergency room when he got home from work, since my asshole dad had to leave to michigan this morning. apparently, his girlfriend and her family are more important than his barely breathing and less than coherent daughter. i'm not self centered in the least, but you'd think parents would care... oh not this one. (he is so narcissistic it makes me siiiiiick!) he bitched at me for asking for the phone number to the fucking family doctor. nonsense. whatevs. i went to st. john west shore up in westlake. i had three breathing treatments, two chest x-rays, and some steroids. i couldn't even walk i was such a mess at the hospital i was in a wheelchair, most likely drooling all over myself. classy. i'm on all kinds of drugs now: antibiotics, steroids, inhalers, decongestants, it's ridiculous. i haven't felt like such a pile of shit in quite sometime. i need someone to come take care of me and warm up so soup for me. i'm miserable. i went to work at wal*mart at 10.30pm tonight. aulbs and i flew up there. LIGHTENING BOLT! i'm actually supposed to be at wal*mart working right now, but i felt incredibly light-headed and dizzy. i was chillin on this park bench in an aisle for about 10 minutes before i decided to go home. aulbs brought me home. i felt really bad, having her lose time on the clock. she's such an amazing friend to have. she is one person out of 5 i know, that possible give a fuck about what happens to me. i wish i could go to sleep, but i'm so used to being awake at this hour. if anyone is out there i could use some friends to come take care of me. i have tonight off work since i came home, and i have off sunday and monday at wal*mart. however, i'm supposed to work at athena's tomorrow. yeah right, i think i'll call and explain what happened. that is if i still have a job. anyhow. i have to quit smoking. the doctors were freaking out on me for it. apparently i have some nasty tar build up already. i guess 7 years of smoking will do it to you. This is going to be a very trying task. i'm hoping i have friends to help me get through this again, and not let me start up once i feel better. i had all of one cigarette all day today. i couldn't even inhale oxygen let alone any cigarette smoke. i just thought i was going to suffocate and die. that might have been better than feeling the way i did earlier today. i think the breathing treatments helped, but i'm still wicked sick. someone come love me. i'm lonely, and inferma. puhleaze. i need you!