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so today i go to double daves for an interview. i'm thinking. it's like across the street from where i live so i think it's veryyy convenient and i can work any hours. funny since i have no car i'm actually happy about this. some of the workers there i recognize. well, one. jamie from connally.
i'm eating too much. i realized this today. i have been very very stressed. i know, still. but i mean alot is changing before my eyes. it's insane. it's hard to keep up with. especially someone with anxiety. i just want to be able to afford my own rent in the next month or so's rent. so i can do this on my own.
i have been driving again. kinda nervous at first but only because i have been scared after that wreck. i'm ok now. i can handle it if i need to.
and i can't not smoke though. every day. it helps me get my mind in order. it helps me write.
i miss my old friends. i call them old now because they never talk to me anymore. even when i try to talk to them several times. i hate feeling neglected.
but what can i do about it. not a damn thing.
i need to exercise more. i think that might make me feel better. and when i say more i mean as in an hour each day. i need to take out frustration, anger, and get ready for something i feel big is about to happen.
i'm eating too much. i realized this today. i have been very very stressed. i know, still. but i mean alot is changing before my eyes. it's insane. it's hard to keep up with. especially someone with anxiety. i just want to be able to afford my own rent in the next month or so's rent. so i can do this on my own.
i have been driving again. kinda nervous at first but only because i have been scared after that wreck. i'm ok now. i can handle it if i need to.
and i can't not smoke though. every day. it helps me get my mind in order. it helps me write.
i miss my old friends. i call them old now because they never talk to me anymore. even when i try to talk to them several times. i hate feeling neglected.
but what can i do about it. not a damn thing.
i need to exercise more. i think that might make me feel better. and when i say more i mean as in an hour each day. i need to take out frustration, anger, and get ready for something i feel big is about to happen.