Concatenation (Shattered & Remember; Vision & Desolation; Sacred Moment & Paragon)
Today was the first really good day I've had in awhile. I woke up with a beautiful woman in my arms, and for the first time in awhile, I felt completely comfortable. I had slept well, which is unusual for me when I sleep with someone else in close proximity. Either I have an uncharacteristic amount of trust for this person, or I was so fucking tired last night that it just didn't matter.
Tonight in preparation for the poetry slam, I combined and edited some of my shorter poems to create something more adequate for presentation. I think they went over fairly well; the crowd was thin, but the energy level was reasonable. I've posted the results in LJ cuts at the bottom of this post. I like how these have fit together so well; they seem to complete eachother like perfect couples.
After the slam, we went to TGI Friday's, which has become tradition. Good drinks, good company, and good conversation provided an excellent close to the day. Now I'm home, winding down, doing more laundry. Bed soon. Finally I'm going to get to sleep in! I suppose I should mention that my schedule has been fucked up because I've had to awaken at 6:30am these last three days for work-related ACU courses. I am now officially trained on Microsoft Windows Scripting. Sweet.
Shattered (08/23/03) & Remember (08/01/03)
My eyelids are heavy
I don’t want to stay awake
Taunted by these visions
My hands begin to shake
This incandescent place
Lights play upon my skin
Glistening with moisture
The world begins to spin
Eclipsed within the sunset
Night and day have made a trade
As this realm slips into darkness
Reality starts to fade
Refracting in a dream
With nothing to atone
Lost within the desert
Surrounded but alone
Disfigured phantoms
Blurry stars within the sky
Pinholes in my mind
A truth that I deny
So terribly estranged
I feel so out of place
I’ll leave this world behind
As I drift off into space
I hope you can read my script
My fingers feel so weak
I will leave this here upon your desk
Awaiting your receipt
When the horizon burns with fury
When the sun begins to set
When your mind begins to wander
Please do not forget
When shadows surround you
Swallowing the light
Please look to the stars
And remember me tonight
Celebrate the memories
That together we have shared
Even though I’m far away
Please do not be scared
Live for the future
But don’t neglect the past
There is nothing left to fear
Though our world may be vast
I know you have the strength
To prevail through years ahead
It’ll be okay to depend on me
Even when I’m dead
Sacred Moment (08/30/04) & Paragon (10/11/03)
Since the day that we first met
I’ve been caught within your spell
I’m stunned by your sincerity
And aroused by your sweet smell
Your intellect and compassion
Your firm will to ascend
I admire what you represent
And all that you contend
Look deep into my eyes
Come close and take my hand
This is a moment we can share
Even if no one understands
Fall away into eternity
Forget the tethers of this place
Forget society, normality
Lose track of time and space
Just melt into my arms
As though nothing else exists
Just my sacred, gentle touch
And my tender, loving kiss
Moments aren’t immortal
Over time they always scatter
Tossed away to the four winds
But for now that doesn’t matter
I fly a magic carpet
A path into your soul
This is my only refuge from
A world that’s dark and cold
It seems like nothing else is real
When you look into my eyes
There’s nothing else I want
And there is no compromise
You are my paragon of love
A forbidden fruit to taste
Now that I have held you near
You cannot be replaced
I ask that you stay near me
And never leave my side
For together we are a cell which
By no means should divide
We were meant to be together
If there’s such a thing as fate
Nothing could be real like
The world that we create
The first day that we met
I think we always knew
And in spite of what we’ve endured
I’m still in love with you
Vision (08/29/03) & Desolation (03/05/04)
This is a desert of secrets
A wind-blown plain of sand
Dunes slope into eternity
And continue to expand
An onion-skin of layers
Enigmatic and obscure
A fortress of defense
To help you feel secure
A nebula of thoughts within
An asteroid belt of fears
Using any means you can
To mask your hidden tears
Say that you are fine
Conceal your vicious scar
But like glass, you are transparent
I see through to who you are
With your lips bent to a frown
And your fingers curled
Seated on an icy throne
In your monochromatic world
You feed from desolation
Breathing in despair
Discord is your drink of choice
And calamity your fare
Refusing to believe
In anything but strife
According to your view
There’s only pain in life
What you feel is empty
You’re vapid and alone
You feel it deep inside and it
Pulls you from your throne
Now you’ve fallen to your knees
You’re crawling on the ground
Seeking faith, seeking purpose
But there’s none here to be found
Cock your head and look around you
No one’s there to hear your speech
Now you’re drowning, land surrounding
With no way to reach the beach
Tonight in preparation for the poetry slam, I combined and edited some of my shorter poems to create something more adequate for presentation. I think they went over fairly well; the crowd was thin, but the energy level was reasonable. I've posted the results in LJ cuts at the bottom of this post. I like how these have fit together so well; they seem to complete eachother like perfect couples.
After the slam, we went to TGI Friday's, which has become tradition. Good drinks, good company, and good conversation provided an excellent close to the day. Now I'm home, winding down, doing more laundry. Bed soon. Finally I'm going to get to sleep in! I suppose I should mention that my schedule has been fucked up because I've had to awaken at 6:30am these last three days for work-related ACU courses. I am now officially trained on Microsoft Windows Scripting. Sweet.
Shattered (08/23/03) & Remember (08/01/03)
My eyelids are heavy
I don’t want to stay awake
Taunted by these visions
My hands begin to shake
This incandescent place
Lights play upon my skin
Glistening with moisture
The world begins to spin
Eclipsed within the sunset
Night and day have made a trade
As this realm slips into darkness
Reality starts to fade
Refracting in a dream
With nothing to atone
Lost within the desert
Surrounded but alone
Disfigured phantoms
Blurry stars within the sky
Pinholes in my mind
A truth that I deny
So terribly estranged
I feel so out of place
I’ll leave this world behind
As I drift off into space
I hope you can read my script
My fingers feel so weak
I will leave this here upon your desk
Awaiting your receipt
When the horizon burns with fury
When the sun begins to set
When your mind begins to wander
Please do not forget
When shadows surround you
Swallowing the light
Please look to the stars
And remember me tonight
Celebrate the memories
That together we have shared
Even though I’m far away
Please do not be scared
Live for the future
But don’t neglect the past
There is nothing left to fear
Though our world may be vast
I know you have the strength
To prevail through years ahead
It’ll be okay to depend on me
Even when I’m dead
Sacred Moment (08/30/04) & Paragon (10/11/03)
Since the day that we first met
I’ve been caught within your spell
I’m stunned by your sincerity
And aroused by your sweet smell
Your intellect and compassion
Your firm will to ascend
I admire what you represent
And all that you contend
Look deep into my eyes
Come close and take my hand
This is a moment we can share
Even if no one understands
Fall away into eternity
Forget the tethers of this place
Forget society, normality
Lose track of time and space
Just melt into my arms
As though nothing else exists
Just my sacred, gentle touch
And my tender, loving kiss
Moments aren’t immortal
Over time they always scatter
Tossed away to the four winds
But for now that doesn’t matter
I fly a magic carpet
A path into your soul
This is my only refuge from
A world that’s dark and cold
It seems like nothing else is real
When you look into my eyes
There’s nothing else I want
And there is no compromise
You are my paragon of love
A forbidden fruit to taste
Now that I have held you near
You cannot be replaced
I ask that you stay near me
And never leave my side
For together we are a cell which
By no means should divide
We were meant to be together
If there’s such a thing as fate
Nothing could be real like
The world that we create
The first day that we met
I think we always knew
And in spite of what we’ve endured
I’m still in love with you
Vision (08/29/03) & Desolation (03/05/04)
This is a desert of secrets
A wind-blown plain of sand
Dunes slope into eternity
And continue to expand
An onion-skin of layers
Enigmatic and obscure
A fortress of defense
To help you feel secure
A nebula of thoughts within
An asteroid belt of fears
Using any means you can
To mask your hidden tears
Say that you are fine
Conceal your vicious scar
But like glass, you are transparent
I see through to who you are
With your lips bent to a frown
And your fingers curled
Seated on an icy throne
In your monochromatic world
You feed from desolation
Breathing in despair
Discord is your drink of choice
And calamity your fare
Refusing to believe
In anything but strife
According to your view
There’s only pain in life
What you feel is empty
You’re vapid and alone
You feel it deep inside and it
Pulls you from your throne
Now you’ve fallen to your knees
You’re crawling on the ground
Seeking faith, seeking purpose
But there’s none here to be found
Cock your head and look around you
No one’s there to hear your speech
Now you’re drowning, land surrounding
With no way to reach the beach