Deliverance
On Wednesday I went to Anthology for the poetry slam, but it was cancelled because of the political debate. I ended up chatting with a stranger until the coffee house closed. She came back to my place where we continued to talk until 5am. It was the best conversation I’ve had in longer than I can remember, even though I did most of the talking. It’s weird how vocalization can make your own thoughts so much more clear.
I can best compare my current perspective to the anime “Waking Life”. I feel like I’m caught in a lucid dream, drifting from place to place. It’s as though I’m seeking something, but I don’t know what. I’m simply absorbing my surroundings. Sometimes I feel like I’m watching myself interact from a third-person perspective. I feel like I’m watching the seasons of life pass with the fascination of a child watching their first snow.
I’ve given great consideration to life’s purpose and have realized that without social expectations, without a God, and without fate, all that remains is experience. The choice I must make, then, is what to do with this experience. I have always lived to impact the world in a positive way, but I feel like somewhere along the way I lost touch with that ideology. It’s as though I forgot what it really meant, or maybe I just stopped trying.
I’ve come upon so much within these last two years. I’m just now realizing how much I’ve changed, and how much I’ve learned. It’s as though I’ve been empowered to summarize the lessons of my life and come upon an answer to the question that’s plagued me since the birth of my first coherent thought. My fervor and zeal for life has been restored.
Ignorance and curiosity are perhaps the two most important characteristics of humanity, short of our inherent selfishness and masochism. I acknowledge that I will be ignorant in some way for the rest of my life, and that my thirst for knowledge will never be fully quenched or fulfilled. I will play the game and write my own chapter in the book of life. I will leave my mark with a smile and a warm heart. I will live to learn, until the final lesson is delivered unto me.
“Get busy living, or get busy dying.” -Andy Dufresne in “The Shawshank Redemption”
I can best compare my current perspective to the anime “Waking Life”. I feel like I’m caught in a lucid dream, drifting from place to place. It’s as though I’m seeking something, but I don’t know what. I’m simply absorbing my surroundings. Sometimes I feel like I’m watching myself interact from a third-person perspective. I feel like I’m watching the seasons of life pass with the fascination of a child watching their first snow.
I’ve given great consideration to life’s purpose and have realized that without social expectations, without a God, and without fate, all that remains is experience. The choice I must make, then, is what to do with this experience. I have always lived to impact the world in a positive way, but I feel like somewhere along the way I lost touch with that ideology. It’s as though I forgot what it really meant, or maybe I just stopped trying.
I’ve come upon so much within these last two years. I’m just now realizing how much I’ve changed, and how much I’ve learned. It’s as though I’ve been empowered to summarize the lessons of my life and come upon an answer to the question that’s plagued me since the birth of my first coherent thought. My fervor and zeal for life has been restored.
Ignorance and curiosity are perhaps the two most important characteristics of humanity, short of our inherent selfishness and masochism. I acknowledge that I will be ignorant in some way for the rest of my life, and that my thirst for knowledge will never be fully quenched or fulfilled. I will play the game and write my own chapter in the book of life. I will leave my mark with a smile and a warm heart. I will live to learn, until the final lesson is delivered unto me.
“Get busy living, or get busy dying.” -Andy Dufresne in “The Shawshank Redemption”