2011-07-02 Trip Log
Last night we visited our friend Lucy once again. We set our intentions very loosely, with just the two of us wanting to share something beautiful together. We took only one each and began by sorting through my magical bag of rave lights, taking some apart and swapping batteries for the best possible output. I thought it best to listen to a playlist of music that blends together well from track to track, but she disagreed and suggested we listen to a variety so that we would not get "stuck". I hesitantly agreed. I can be a stubborn creature of habit, so I thought it might be good for me to let this experience differ.
It began to kick in rather quickly, and as we felt the tension rise in our bodies we cleared the space and tried to relax. I was unsure about how well it would go based on my body's initial reaction, but as the moments slipped by and the visuals began to take hold, my anxiety gave way to euphoria. The musical selection turned out to be a solid choice, helping to shape a series of different emotional and energetic exchanges between us.
We are both well acquainted with energy. She was open and receptive. I was interested in experimenting with Reiki energy in particular now that I am properly attuned, but as things turned out that would wait until nearly the end of the night. It seems impossible to describe these types of energy exchanges, but I want to record this while it is fresh. These will serve as useful notes for future experiments.
I could feel the light and heavy currents of energy in the air, like tangible metallic webs that I could manipulate and move as though my hands were powerful magnets. I practiced a technique I have been perfecting, where I would place the fingertip or palm of one hand on her body, usually corresponding to a chakra, and hold the other hand above her crown. I focused on mentally drawing a line from one hand to the other, and imagined it as a path. The path channels from one hand to the other toward the crown. I prefer to begin at the first or second chakra.
Concentrating on this flow created a telepathic space for us to share; bonded and connected us, the way I imagine an animal "whisperer" would bond to their pet. This happens by accident with many psychedelic and dissociative drugs, but in this way I have been able to control it to a large degree. At first, the connection seems to share the spirit or mood projected by the environment. For example, at one point we were listening to Apocalytica, a dramatic song, and at first my technique harnessed a very sad emotional share. It felt as though we were immersed completely in some heart-breaking drama, those powerful stringed instruments speaking volumes without words.
However, with focus, I transmuted this energy into an animalistic, sexual vibration that powered through us both. If two energetic bodies could make love, I imagine this was how it would feel. From my perspective, it was like I had entered her, but in an energetic way. It was very invasive, but welcomed and reciprocated, which made it an experience I will never forget. I believe that all energy can be transmuted into other forms, you just have to focus on the intention.
We had countless such exchanges through the night, in so many forms that it is unnecessary for me to recount more detail. Each was equally powerful, until the drug began to wear off. I remember being disappointed, but it didn't take me long to find a way to revitalize the connection. I began using words and singing notes to harness the type of vibration I sought. It seemed that because my mind was no longer a chemically altered channel, I had to use other methods to focus my intention. The effects seemed harder to hold onto; it was more difficult to concentrate. This could be in part due to physical exhaustion.
As I noticed the trip subsiding, I seized my opportunity before it was too late. I asked her to lie down on the bed facing the ceiling and began to perform Reiki on her. I found putting myself into this headspace quite easy; it seemed natural. I was acutely aware of the symbols and how they felt in relation to the natural energy around me, and hers as well. I was thankful to understand their vibration in a more intimate way. I could tell by her body responses that she was very much enjoying the energy exchange.
Following the Reiki session I began doing some cranial energy work. This was a very interesting experience. As I held her head, I could feel the vibration of her spinal fluid, and was able to commune my intention into it in a similar way as above. Instead of stretching an intention across an energy field from one point to another, I imagined extending it directly into her tissues. This was very different. We were not sharing a conscious space; instead, I was sending one, and acting as a channel. I felt very peaceful and energized. It was much like performing Reiki in that respect. I did this for well over an hour, until I had brought her into a sleep state.
I stretched and joined her in rest as best I could. Unfortunately, even though my mind was quiet, my body was still quite tense and it took me a long time to drift off. There was a lot more to the evening that I haven't touched on - lots of laughter and fun. We did end up playing with the lights a bit, but not much. It's interesting that I can still do poi so well, it has been years. I want to bite into fire dancing... that would be fun. Anyway, signing off for now. Cheers.
It began to kick in rather quickly, and as we felt the tension rise in our bodies we cleared the space and tried to relax. I was unsure about how well it would go based on my body's initial reaction, but as the moments slipped by and the visuals began to take hold, my anxiety gave way to euphoria. The musical selection turned out to be a solid choice, helping to shape a series of different emotional and energetic exchanges between us.
We are both well acquainted with energy. She was open and receptive. I was interested in experimenting with Reiki energy in particular now that I am properly attuned, but as things turned out that would wait until nearly the end of the night. It seems impossible to describe these types of energy exchanges, but I want to record this while it is fresh. These will serve as useful notes for future experiments.
I could feel the light and heavy currents of energy in the air, like tangible metallic webs that I could manipulate and move as though my hands were powerful magnets. I practiced a technique I have been perfecting, where I would place the fingertip or palm of one hand on her body, usually corresponding to a chakra, and hold the other hand above her crown. I focused on mentally drawing a line from one hand to the other, and imagined it as a path. The path channels from one hand to the other toward the crown. I prefer to begin at the first or second chakra.
Concentrating on this flow created a telepathic space for us to share; bonded and connected us, the way I imagine an animal "whisperer" would bond to their pet. This happens by accident with many psychedelic and dissociative drugs, but in this way I have been able to control it to a large degree. At first, the connection seems to share the spirit or mood projected by the environment. For example, at one point we were listening to Apocalytica, a dramatic song, and at first my technique harnessed a very sad emotional share. It felt as though we were immersed completely in some heart-breaking drama, those powerful stringed instruments speaking volumes without words.
However, with focus, I transmuted this energy into an animalistic, sexual vibration that powered through us both. If two energetic bodies could make love, I imagine this was how it would feel. From my perspective, it was like I had entered her, but in an energetic way. It was very invasive, but welcomed and reciprocated, which made it an experience I will never forget. I believe that all energy can be transmuted into other forms, you just have to focus on the intention.
We had countless such exchanges through the night, in so many forms that it is unnecessary for me to recount more detail. Each was equally powerful, until the drug began to wear off. I remember being disappointed, but it didn't take me long to find a way to revitalize the connection. I began using words and singing notes to harness the type of vibration I sought. It seemed that because my mind was no longer a chemically altered channel, I had to use other methods to focus my intention. The effects seemed harder to hold onto; it was more difficult to concentrate. This could be in part due to physical exhaustion.
As I noticed the trip subsiding, I seized my opportunity before it was too late. I asked her to lie down on the bed facing the ceiling and began to perform Reiki on her. I found putting myself into this headspace quite easy; it seemed natural. I was acutely aware of the symbols and how they felt in relation to the natural energy around me, and hers as well. I was thankful to understand their vibration in a more intimate way. I could tell by her body responses that she was very much enjoying the energy exchange.
Following the Reiki session I began doing some cranial energy work. This was a very interesting experience. As I held her head, I could feel the vibration of her spinal fluid, and was able to commune my intention into it in a similar way as above. Instead of stretching an intention across an energy field from one point to another, I imagined extending it directly into her tissues. This was very different. We were not sharing a conscious space; instead, I was sending one, and acting as a channel. I felt very peaceful and energized. It was much like performing Reiki in that respect. I did this for well over an hour, until I had brought her into a sleep state.
I stretched and joined her in rest as best I could. Unfortunately, even though my mind was quiet, my body was still quite tense and it took me a long time to drift off. There was a lot more to the evening that I haven't touched on - lots of laughter and fun. We did end up playing with the lights a bit, but not much. It's interesting that I can still do poi so well, it has been years. I want to bite into fire dancing... that would be fun. Anyway, signing off for now. Cheers.