life
I think I'm the luckiest person in the world to be in the most beautiful place that I beleive to exist. My life is amazing, I am so happy. Sometimes I dream of home at night time, but thats the only time I miss it when I wake up and remember I'm here, but then I can't stop smiling.
I've let something happen that I shouldn't have though. I got too involved with someone and I know nothing is every going to happen out of it but my attachment remains.I guess I secretly do want it to be more than it can ever be. I had many realizations lastnight after too many drinks and I broke down. Its so easy to say its nothing and its fine but it's not. I don't regret meeting him but I just wish sometimes I was one of those girls who doesnt get attached.
Anyways it doesnt change my love for this place, I guess it only makes it a bit more interesting heh.
I have many friends on this island and it grows everyday, swedish friends, thai friends, british friends, its pretty amazing. The thai people just are incredible. Danielle and I are trying to learn thai we have a few teachers but its hard to remember it all .. some words help tho!
Tonight or tomorrow I'm gonna get a job, I have 15$ in my bank account and a bit more in my wallet ha ha. I'm going to pass out flyers for one of the bars.. it will pay for my room and food anyways! and get drinks too.
I am going to try to extend my ticket. I'm supposed to fly to HK from bangkok april 28th and fly from HK to vic on may 13th. We are going to try to stay in Thailand til mid May then go to Cambodia for 10 days, then hong kong maybe 5 days and be back in the end of May?
I actually just can't beleive I have to ever leave this place. Danielle and I had the most intense moment on the beach yesterday. I had this feeling in my chest of love for here, it's so strange but it was a very cool moment and we were nearly crying but out of happiness.
The world is amazing.
I've let something happen that I shouldn't have though. I got too involved with someone and I know nothing is every going to happen out of it but my attachment remains.I guess I secretly do want it to be more than it can ever be. I had many realizations lastnight after too many drinks and I broke down. Its so easy to say its nothing and its fine but it's not. I don't regret meeting him but I just wish sometimes I was one of those girls who doesnt get attached.
Anyways it doesnt change my love for this place, I guess it only makes it a bit more interesting heh.
I have many friends on this island and it grows everyday, swedish friends, thai friends, british friends, its pretty amazing. The thai people just are incredible. Danielle and I are trying to learn thai we have a few teachers but its hard to remember it all .. some words help tho!
Tonight or tomorrow I'm gonna get a job, I have 15$ in my bank account and a bit more in my wallet ha ha. I'm going to pass out flyers for one of the bars.. it will pay for my room and food anyways! and get drinks too.
I am going to try to extend my ticket. I'm supposed to fly to HK from bangkok april 28th and fly from HK to vic on may 13th. We are going to try to stay in Thailand til mid May then go to Cambodia for 10 days, then hong kong maybe 5 days and be back in the end of May?
I actually just can't beleive I have to ever leave this place. Danielle and I had the most intense moment on the beach yesterday. I had this feeling in my chest of love for here, it's so strange but it was a very cool moment and we were nearly crying but out of happiness.
The world is amazing.