What's the big question...?
The big question is...what do you want to do with your life..? I fucking hate that question..I have goals and plans and all of that but I dunno what it is but I've never really liked sharing them with other people..and unfortunately if I answer that I don't know more people just feel inclined to give me a lecture about it..I've decided that this needs to stop..People just need to get over it and realize that it's my fucking life and I have no reason to justify it to them..I keep it to myself and keep right on with my plans..which by the way for the last 7 years have pretty much worked out exactly like I said they would..so let's see..When I was 16 I decided that I wanted to graduate from highn school early..so while no one else I knew was doing this I was making sure all the requirements were filled so I could get it done..and then when I fucked up..I made the choice to do what I had to do to fix it and I graduated early..Of course that wasn't enough..so right afterwards I got a job and kept it for a year..and half way through the year I went to community college just to get an start...and I know I didn't plan for actual 4 year college all that well..but I made up my mind that I was going to leave Corpus for it..so amid much protesting from family and friends I moved up there not knowing a single person and never having driven there in my own car because I was alwayz too freaked out..so fast forward 4 and a half years later..and I'm graduating..with an above 3.0 GPA..which I know isn't the most impressive things since it was UTSA but I did actually put in more effort than I ever expected to..and even in that time I made things happen that I said were going to happen..my favorite being that I went to Chicago in November and had one of the best times of my life...and yes...in all that time I made plenty of plans and set many goals and totally fell short and didn't come close to achieving them..but I feel I got the biggest one out of the way (graduating) and for the moment that should be good enough...So now that I'm done I've said to a few people for a while now that I'm going to move to Austin..I'm pretty sure that I didn't tell most of the people I know that I was moving until I got approved for the appartment..and there were some people that didn't even know I was leaving until I was already here in Austin...So now the big question is what do you want to do with your life..well if you all must know the only thing I want to do right now is get a job...when I fist talked about moving here in December when I found the apartment I assumed it would still take me a while to find a job..so when I realized that I wasn't going to be here until February I figured that I would spend that time looking but not worry too much as long as by the end of February I had some kind of job so that I could have money to just live off of..and guess what I did..I got the crappy temp job..yes I hate it...yes it sucks..and it has nothing to do with what I want to do but Oh well...I'm an adult and I need money..I'm sure that if I really wanted to that I could spounge off my Mom still..but you know..I'd rather not do that without at least contributing some if not most myself..So I guess that would mean that one of the goals I have is to finally really be financially independent..and I'm willing to have a crappy job that I'm way too good for that's only gonna last a few weeks just so that I can be one step closer to that goal..So that's where I am right now..So now as for the future I don't know what I want to do yet..The short term things for my life are what I'm really focusing on..but if you want I have some ideas...Well so far I know that I want to do something that I believe in even if it means I make less money than most people..fortunately marriage and kids is not something I want so I know that I can live on less money..which means that I don't ever want to work for some giant company that I hate like Time Warner or Clearchannel..I'd like to work for a non profit organization..and I think the best one for me would be Planned Parenthood..I guess that is the feminist in me talking..doing something for them communications related would be great..I don't mind public relations if it's for a good cause..and I would for sure love to do anything that requires public speaking..another thing that I would want to do is be a critic or reviewer of some kind..music..food..movies..local hangouts..bars..whatever..something that I'm interested in..for a magazine or something since I do like to write..and from what people have said I'm good at it..maybe for something like the Current in San Antonio...or something...I actually kinda forgot about that one until recently...So last is the idea of going back to school and getting my Master's degree..I don't really think I can get into UT and I don't know if I want to really work that hard..but I'm sure that I could probably get in at Texas State if I moved to San Marcus..and I know that I could talk to some of my past professors that liked me a lot..which was weird..but I know there's at least 3 that would give me good recomindations...so I can go back to school and then when I'm done teach some kind of communication class at a community college...So those are my ideas for jobs...I also don't want to stay in Texas my whole life..I figure that I'll spend the next 5 or 6 years getting experience doing anything..basically just working..possibly 7 if I choose to go back to school...and by then I will have the degree..or degrees and enough experience to actually persue getting my "dream job" whatever and wherever that might be..and who knows that plan can change..but at the moment that's the idea..So I guess my point is..wait till I'm 30 and then ask me the big question again...although I have a feeling the answer probably won't change too much other than I don't know..