(no subject)
+.+.
the past few weeks have been so fantastic that there is no place to go but down.
+ i'll ride the high as long as it lasts but i can feel it slipping.
there was a moment at night when i laid on my back and looked up at the sky and felt how truly insignificant i am. i felt so small but so large for conquering such a thought. it was a rush of oxymorons i let my fingers dance along the stars and everything felt completely amazing. i felt like for whatever reason, i was meant to be at that exact place in that moment feeling every emotion i felt. it was nice.
i thought about all the people who spend each day completely immune to the fact that they are living. i hope that all of them find life and take from it what they will before they miss everything.
i thought a lot about all the people who dont have time for silly thoughts like this. the people who are too consumed with basic survival to worry about the fruits of life. it was all extremely, dispiriting accompanied heart wrenching empathy.
i realized that every day people impact the lives of others around them and most people are oblivious to the fact that the things they do and say really are ingested and processed. a simple glance is enough to break my heart.
+i'm being careful to mind my eyes.
i felt like too many people operate on a day to day basis concerned with lucrative goals rather than simple experience. in a sense i guess experience can be seen as lucrative but i'm talking about the kind of self indulgence that is purely for status.
- so many people consume themselves with saying the right things, and creating an image that they lose any hint of self awareness in a sea of cliches and name brands.
i cant even say that i'm not guilty.
i guess spending 4 days in a field with mind altering substances and tons of dust prompts life evaluation.
everything in moderation.
-except for gatorade.
