"And I say, baby..I feel stupid to call you, but I'm lonely...'

Aug 11, 2004 15:04

Listen as the wind blows from across the great divide
voices trapped in yearning, memories trapped in time
the night is my companion, and solitude my guide
would I spend forever here and not be satisfied?
and I want to be the one
to hold you down
kiss you so hard
I'll take your breath away
and after, I'd wipe away my tears
I can't close my eyes
Through this world I've stumbled
so many times betrayed
trying to find an honest word to find
the truth enslaved
oh you speak to me in riddles
and you speak to me in rhymes
my body aches to breathe your breath
your words keep me alive
Am I still the one
to hold you down
kiss you so hard
I take your breath away
Or am I mistaken?
and after, I'd wipe away all these tears
Into this night I wander
Waiting for your forgotten touch
it's morning that I dread
another day of knowing
the path I fear to tread
oh into the sea of waking dreams
I follow without pride
nothing stands between us here
and I won't be denied
and I would be the one
to hold you down
kiss you so hard
I'll take your breath away
and after, I'd wipe away the tears
Don't leave me here
Trembling...

Everything I've been doing seems to be in vain. I found
Mario ShroomTrip: wait
Mario ShroomTrip: let me recap,
ThreeDaysOfRain: lol
Mario ShroomTrip: first, i meet you on a bad ass night at a sweet ass place.....perfect
Mario ShroomTrip: next
Mario ShroomTrip: i get to know ya and YOU take me out to get a blizzared even though i didnt want you to buy me anything......excelent
Mario ShroomTrip: after that,
Mario ShroomTrip: we mess around and come to find out, your good at what you do from what you ahve told me, and givin me a preview............holly sweet jesus
Mario ShroomTrip: then
Mario ShroomTrip: me and you go shopping for your mom, and i havent had that good of a time spending time with a girl in a while.........(the oooother one was dule and boring and predictable)
Mario ShroomTrip: and to top this all off, your humor is great, your family ACTUALLY likes me, and you surpise me (like that day you bought me a blizzard at lunch, from that point on you won my heart over, not at the fact it was cause you bought me something, it was the fact you thought about me)
Mario ShroomTrip: and then the whole dropping the flower from the balcony, i dont care what you say, im a hopeless romantic too baby
Mario ShroomTrip: if i wasnt, i wouldnt have blown you a kiss.....
Mario ShroomTrip: felt like romeo and juliet
Mario ShroomTrip: to tell you the truth though sweetheart, i dont think i could get a bigger smile on my face
ThreeDaysOfRain: awwwww. im going to go to bed so much happier than i was, every minute just makes you better and better- both of which i thought was impossible.

ThreeDaysOfRain: lol actually in the beginning i wondered if you were....but no im pretty convinced you arent
ThreeDaysOfRain: its a good thing first impressions lie
Mario ShroomTrip: lol, you didnt even know me to get a first impression
ThreeDaysOfRain: lol leave me and my bitchiness alone
Mario ShroomTrip: its all gravy baby, for brandon was all like, man at first i thought she was a bitch, talking about where are we going to sleep
Mario ShroomTrip: but shes bad ass
Mario ShroomTrip: i said
Mario ShroomTrip: and he was all like
Mario ShroomTrip: i kow
Mario ShroomTrip: and i was like, woo woo
ThreeDaysOfRain: i was trippin out over stupid stuff....lol im glad your opinion changed
Mario ShroomTrip: well, hey cuite
Mario ShroomTrip: its almost 2
Mario ShroomTrip: and i dont wana keep your pretty face up
Mario ShroomTrip: you need your sleep
ThreeDaysOfRain: except i plan to stay up all night anyway...but...you're very thoughtful
Mario ShroomTrip: why are you going to stay up all night?
ThreeDaysOfRain: because i need to do that homework or i'll fail a quiz and a test tomorrow...and i still need to shower...i fi go to bed now i'll wake up late so might as well stay up
ThreeDaysOfRain: only 5 more hours to go
Mario ShroomTrip: so if i call your sexy ass tomorrow, will you come spend time with me? i wont be so hands on and we can get to know each other........
ThreeDaysOfRain: hands on...lol
ThreeDaysOfRain: sure...i'll try.
ThreeDaysOfRain: i want to
Mario ShroomTrip: if not, ill come visit yas
ThreeDaysOfRain: either is fine with me
Mario ShroomTrip: well, i leave a bunch of voice mail, and ill try and see you, and ill keep my hands to my self
Mario ShroomTrip: hehehe
ThreeDaysOfRain: hey i never complained...but its all up to you
Mario ShroomTrip: nuh uh
Mario ShroomTrip: woman
ThreeDaysOfRain: uh huh
ThreeDaysOfRain: man
Mario ShroomTrip: i dont want you to feel like you said we were going pretty fast
ThreeDaysOfRain: i was talkig about sex
Mario ShroomTrip: lol
ThreeDaysOfRain: im a touchy feely person..i was happy with how today was
ThreeDaysOfRain: lol
Mario ShroomTrip: oh.....well, in that case.....;-) ?
Mario ShroomTrip: whats the damn deal?
ThreeDaysOfRain: lol
Mario ShroomTrip: hey
ThreeDaysOfRain: hey what
Mario ShroomTrip: is you being curious about things good for mes? please say yes
ThreeDaysOfRain: yes
Mario ShroomTrip: yey
ThreeDaysOfRain: its a damn good start
Mario ShroomTrip: lol
Mario ShroomTrip: kick start
ThreeDaysOfRain: damn right
Mario ShroomTrip: better not just die like its out of gass......
Mario ShroomTrip: fucking expensive ass gas
ThreeDaysOfRain: like my dads 4 wheeler always does
ThreeDaysOfRain: i doubt it will...besides...my gas is cheap
ThreeDaysOfRain: you can buy more easily
Mario ShroomTrip: oh....i have to pay?
ThreeDaysOfRain: lol
ThreeDaysOfRain: not so far
Mario ShroomTrip: i dont have money
Mario ShroomTrip: .......so........can you put it on my tab?
ThreeDaysOfRain: alright then...you'll just have to get by on your good looks
Mario ShroomTrip: lol
Mario ShroomTrip: thats all i am to you, a pretty face and a piece of dick
ThreeDaysOfRain: got the first one right at least
ThreeDaysOfRain: too bad im not about dick...in the least bit- but if i was....
Mario ShroomTrip: what? you dont like dick?
Mario ShroomTrip: weirdo
ThreeDaysOfRain: lol you are an asshole and i like you even more for it
Mario ShroomTrip: im not an asshole, just a smart ass
Mario ShroomTrip: get it from my daddy
ThreeDaysOfRain: yeah thats a better word
Mario ShroomTrip: lol
Mario ShroomTrip: so.....lets get this nice and straight like a ruller
Mario ShroomTrip: your very pretty
Mario ShroomTrip: very sweet
Mario ShroomTrip: fun
Mario ShroomTrip: whitty
Mario ShroomTrip: and interesting
Mario ShroomTrip: but........you dont like fast starts
Mario ShroomTrip: and your not the least bit interested in sex
ThreeDaysOfRain: i like where we were today...i love touching you, kissing you, being the way we've been....i dont want to take it farther until we've nown each other longer/better and know thats what we want. i AM interested in sex (hey sex is great) but ot full blown casual sex right now...ends up hurting people... so it could be awhile...if we went up being together later on down the road...we'll talk again.
ThreeDaysOfRain: on that topic that is
ThreeDaysOfRain: to be blunt...if i didnt feel slutty about it, sex would come into the picture faster than it will
Mario ShroomTrip: well, as far as touching and kissing goes from now on, you make the first move, and ill feel froggy and leap with yas
Mario ShroomTrip: so, its all in your hands
Mario ShroomTrip: you know what i think
ThreeDaysOfRain: ...........
ThreeDaysOfRain: what?
Mario ShroomTrip: THAT YOUR GREAT
Mario ShroomTrip: AWESOME
Mario ShroomTrip: INCREDIBLE
Mario ShroomTrip: but, i still leave it to you
Mario ShroomTrip: all i can do is keep and touch and seee whats up
Mario ShroomTrip: look
Mario ShroomTrip: i made a rhyme
Mario ShroomTrip: like you
ThreeDaysOfRain: and i think you're making me feel better than i have in months....and thats from knowing you two days......ahhhh
ThreeDaysOfRain: hey if all it takes is the first move...baby you got it. but dont expect me to each time if you dont follow my lead...
ThreeDaysOfRain: i'll start to feel...
ThreeDaysOfRain: unloved
ThreeDaysOfRain: lol
ThreeDaysOfRain: and just so you know....you made me blush and thats hard to do
ThreeDaysOfRain: and i think you're incredible too
ThreeDaysOfRain: ha!!! rhymed like a mo fo
ThreeDaysOfRain: what then, biotch?
ThreeDaysOfRain: look at me and my bad self
ThreeDaysOfRain: ....as i wait for signs of life anxiously
Mario ShroomTrip signed off at 2:11:13 AM.
Mario ShroomTrip signed on at 2:11:19 AM.
Mario ShroomTrip: sorry about that
Mario ShroomTrip: did you get what i said?
ThreeDaysOfRain: um....what was the last thing you said?
Mario ShroomTrip: .....something about
Mario ShroomTrip: well, make the first move, see what happens (not to far of course)
Mario ShroomTrip: all you have to do is feel froggy and leap first
ThreeDaysOfRain: and this is after what i said, right?
Mario ShroomTrip: thats sexy
Mario ShroomTrip: which was?
ThreeDaysOfRain: the waiting for life thing..and rhyming stuff
Mario ShroomTrip: waiting for life?
Mario ShroomTrip: i did rhyme
ThreeDaysOfRain: lol
ThreeDaysOfRain: ThreeDaysOfRain: ....as i wait for signs of life anxiously
Mario ShroomTrip: *shrugs*
Mario ShroomTrip: sure
ThreeDaysOfRain: ha. you got the rhyming thing at least though...?
ThreeDaysOfRain: i didnt get anything you sadi after that
Mario ShroomTrip: my computer froze
ThreeDaysOfRain: yeah i caught that
ThreeDaysOfRain: lol
ThreeDaysOfRain: by the signing off, signing on thing
Mario ShroomTrip: lol
ThreeDaysOfRain: you're pretty talented ya know...2:15 am and I'm happy to be awake...no caffeine or anything. it's a record
Mario ShroomTrip: well, i must be doing something right
ThreeDaysOfRain: or i could be letting you think that
ThreeDaysOfRain: ha....great minds think alike- including the smart ass parts of em
Mario ShroomTrip: hell yea
Mario ShroomTrip: 10 pts
ThreeDaysOfRain: whoo hoo
Mario ShroomTrip: man, im a bit chilly,
ThreeDaysOfRain: i wish i was...trade you
Mario ShroomTrip: ...hmmmm
Mario ShroomTrip: if you rwilling to wear boxers
Mario ShroomTrip: and me......what ever you got on
ThreeDaysOfRain: boxers are cool- im wearing the gilrish version of them right now....i wear guyboxers all the time so its you that would be making a sacrifice
Mario ShroomTrip: yea, i would have to wear a bra
Mario ShroomTrip: speaking of bra
ThreeDaysOfRain: no you wouldnt
Mario ShroomTrip: lessly was at bob marley fest
Mario ShroomTrip: he had a skirt
Mario ShroomTrip: with it pulled up in the back
ThreeDaysOfRain: lol!! lesley rules
Mario ShroomTrip: and a black thong on
Mario ShroomTrip: all you had to do was look for ass
Mario ShroomTrip: bam there his tan ass was
ThreeDaysOfRain: i saw him on a motorcycle today
Mario ShroomTrip: lol
ThreeDaysOfRain: with his thong
ThreeDaysOfRain: lol
Mario ShroomTrip: he ran for govener
ThreeDaysOfRain: he has more than once
Mario ShroomTrip: lol
Mario ShroomTrip: crazy guy
Mario ShroomTrip: hey beautiful
ThreeDaysOfRain: beddy bye time?
Mario ShroomTrip: me and you should get some sleep
Mario ShroomTrip: sie mamacita
ThreeDaysOfRain: lol...you mean YOU should get some sleep
Mario ShroomTrip: yes yes
Mario ShroomTrip: me
Mario ShroomTrip: im a tuckered out old fool
Mario ShroomTrip: but
Mario ShroomTrip: hey
Mario ShroomTrip: i was the one wanting to stay up all night saturday
Mario ShroomTrip: you wanted to go to bed
Mario ShroomTrip: sooo
Mario ShroomTrip: ;p
ThreeDaysOfRain: ah ha...touche there my friend you're good at this game
ThreeDaysOfRain: sorry i kept you up this time...but we're even now
Mario ShroomTrip: .lol. woman, dont be even with me, where would anything go if we were all even?
Mario ShroomTrip: hey
ThreeDaysOfRain: lol
Mario ShroomTrip: one question before i hit the dream world
ThreeDaysOfRain: hmm mmm
Mario ShroomTrip: if it was my birthday would you make me a cake?
ThreeDaysOfRain: damn spiffy iw ould make you a cake...i make cakes for people all the time, even for no occasions
Mario ShroomTrip: lol
Mario ShroomTrip: cool
ThreeDaysOfRain: its so fun
ThreeDaysOfRain: why do you ask?
Mario ShroomTrip: not a good cooker my self, but i took home ech. everyone said we were the best cookers
Mario ShroomTrip: i ask, cause, i can, why not? also i didnt get anything really this year, just kinda wanted to konw
Mario ShroomTrip: and you WIIIIN
ThreeDaysOfRain: aww...would you want it chocolate or vanilla?
ThreeDaysOfRain: me, win? nevr
Mario ShroomTrip: well...........your white, so how about vannilla?
ThreeDaysOfRain: lol...whatever you say
Mario ShroomTrip: THATS RIGHT.....jk
Mario ShroomTrip: hey
Mario ShroomTrip: nighty night
ThreeDaysOfRain: night...sweet dreams
Mario ShroomTrip: dont stay up to late...
Mario ShroomTrip: if you can get some rest.....please do
ThreeDaysOfRain: all night you mean? i will
Mario ShroomTrip: i dont want you to be all pooped out tomorrow.......(if so i get to come sleep with you at your house?)
ThreeDaysOfRain: sure...or i can fall asleep in your lap in some other random place
Mario ShroomTrip: if anything, sleep in class
Mario ShroomTrip: hmmmmm
Mario ShroomTrip: i like the sound of that, me and i
Mario ShroomTrip: i mean
Mario ShroomTrip: i and your
ThreeDaysOfRain: lol and get bitched at for being on "bars"...? no sleeping in class....i prefer the lap idea--lol
Mario ShroomTrip: if they mention anyhing about bars, be like, no i dont lift weights......stumps them everytime...jk
ThreeDaysOfRain: lol
ThreeDaysOfRain: will do
Mario ShroomTrip: hey cutie, im off to beddy bye
Mario ShroomTrip: see you tomorrow?
ThreeDaysOfRain: alrighty babe...night- get some sleep, unlike me- and yes
ThreeDaysOfRain: tommorrow
Mario ShroomTrip: allright, make the best out of it......night......
ThreeDaysOfRain: night
Mario ShroomTrip: sorry you cant sleep with messsss...
Mario ShroomTrip signed off at 2:30:46 AM.
ThreeDaysOfRain: dont tempt me
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and it makes me wonder what's changed. I don't know what to do but wait. I was so happy when I got home from vacation, everything seemed so wonderful- so what happened, and where? It would help if you had something, anything to say, about it. Anything but this silence.

Oh well. All I can say is I love you, and the intensity and amount of that has never changed, except to grow. I just hope that still means something to you.

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