Because i have to

Feb 24, 2007 20:49

I ate at the spaghetti factory today....SO DELICIOUS. I am still madly craving another bowl of spinach and cheese ravioli. And that caramel turtle pie? aaaahhhhuuuummmm ( Read more... )

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fantasmagorey March 1 2007, 05:54:11 UTC
Oh, today was horrible. Can't you give me good news?

And every day looks horrible now. :(

On the plus side, I may decide to start working more on my drawings. You know, outside of art class? I have tons of doodles, some are pretty cute. I consider bringing my little book to show you but sometimes I bring it and then those days I don't see you at all.

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obsidian_weaver March 1 2007, 17:15:43 UTC
hey, i tried to be nice and get it for you ahead of time. so at least i attempt to give you good news.

yeah, i havent been outside lately because of FAFSA and other college-related crap. maybe if we had shared just one class together we'd be able to do those things.

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fantasmagorey March 2 2007, 00:23:51 UTC
College, blah.

And I suppose that yes you did try to be nice. I dunno. I am just horribly consistently upset, even Matt noticed it and wouldn't get off my back through the morning and it just made things worse? And he was being nice, too, I guess... I don't know. I am utterly miserable. UTTERLY. You can't fathom it.

segdjkvadvadhyrutwcc. the end.

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obsidian_weaver March 2 2007, 04:09:19 UTC
you are utterly miserable because you can't get the stuff now?
Maybe i can persuade them to get it from somewhere else

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fantasmagorey March 2 2007, 04:23:42 UTC
Its one of those feelings... that turns into a vicious cycle. Like, you're INSANELY UPSET for whatever reasons, and you know how trivial or unimportant the entire situation is. And knowing that you're so upset over something like that just makes it even worse, and you berate yourself so badly that you become utterly miserable and it's all you can think about, anyway, so you're constantly thinking something like, "You're such a fucking idiot, anyway!"

And now I pretend to do homework and fiddle with Guitar Hero.

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obsidian_weaver March 2 2007, 05:15:24 UTC
im not going to be annoying and say, "i know how you feel"
i'll just say i can relate to that feeling at an uncomfortable level. I was even sort of creeped out at how perfectly you described it.

oh, i love this song.

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fantasmagorey March 2 2007, 05:51:27 UTC
Oh, everyone feels like that at some point, I'm sure. It's just pretty sad that it's my every waking moment lately. Even as Bubba hands me a drawing to cheer me up.

It's pretty terrible. And then it kind of adds that I skim down through the comments and I see your "persuade them to..." and I get enough of a jazzed feeling that even my heart starts beating faster, but then, the cycle goes on.

And on and on and on. You know, Nyquil doesn't taste the same to me anymore? Read your e-mail, darn you.

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