Don't You Just Hate It How...
...things can just go wrong in a split second?
How one seemingly perfect day can just go downhill from one moment?
Maybe I'm just being melodramatic.
Maybe I overanalyse things.
Or maybe I should have known that it was too good to last.
I was having such a good day today. Seriously.
I woke up with a smile on my face. I don't even know why. It was so sunny. And even though my bus pass had run out, I walked up to school with a cigarette in such a cheery mood. And there was a gust of wind, and all this pink blossom stuff went over me, and I was on the verge of dancing cuz it was just so beautiful outside (yes, I get like that). Then I went to school and had a Maths test. Which might sound bad to you, but it sounds like a fucking hell of a time to me! It was great. Then I went home, listened to music and sung a lot (I like singing ^_^) and then Alex came to see me on his way into Croydon and I was all like, YAAAAY I CAN'T WAIT TIL YOU COME ROUND LATER. Then I went back to school and went to Graphics, where I did nothing and planned my after-exams party. Smoked a cigarette outside school, got caught by the headteacher, had an arguement about it. The bus stop is not on school grounds, and what kind of retard would class me as a role model? Ridiculous, seriously. Blew smoke at her, got on bus, feeling liberated. Went home, had a driving lesson (fun fun fun)...
Mum: "You know it's your brother and sister's concert tonight?"
Me: "NO. WHAT CONCERT?! YOU SAID ALEX COULD COME ROUND."
Mum: "Oh, uhh...I thought I told you? You have to come, I got you a ticket."
Me: "Are you kidding? Seriously? But, like...EEERRRGGHHHHH"
It's so fucking annoying. Why do parents just assume that you're free, and don't tell you about things that you're apparently doing? It's totally out of order. She can't just plan my fucking life.
And cuz I threw a strop about wanting to see Alex and not go to a shitty school concert, my mum started being a bitch to me, as always. I get really down when she's mean to me. I don't know why. I think it's just cuz when we're getting along, we're really good friends. But when we're not, she's SO harsh to me, and I think, fuck it, my own mother hates me.
So I went to the concert. Sat through about 60 kids. Tried so hard not to fall asleep. Told my mum I thought the music teacher was on pills, which was greeted by an evil stare. She ignored me the rest of the time, then called me a miserable cow after. It's a fucking concert, what do you expect? You're SUPPOSED to be quiet. Geez, woman.
Anyway. I'm in a shitty mood.
One of those moods where nothing is gonna make you feel even close to okay, where everything seems so fucking pointless.
It's just, I was having such a good day, I really was.
And then...she just spoiled it. She always fucking does. I hate her. ERGH.
All I'm asking for is one day. ONE DAY to get through without anything or anyone ruining my perfect day. Seriously. Is it REALLY that much to ask for?
My mum's a cunt.
End of.
How one seemingly perfect day can just go downhill from one moment?
Maybe I'm just being melodramatic.
Maybe I overanalyse things.
Or maybe I should have known that it was too good to last.
I was having such a good day today. Seriously.
I woke up with a smile on my face. I don't even know why. It was so sunny. And even though my bus pass had run out, I walked up to school with a cigarette in such a cheery mood. And there was a gust of wind, and all this pink blossom stuff went over me, and I was on the verge of dancing cuz it was just so beautiful outside (yes, I get like that). Then I went to school and had a Maths test. Which might sound bad to you, but it sounds like a fucking hell of a time to me! It was great. Then I went home, listened to music and sung a lot (I like singing ^_^) and then Alex came to see me on his way into Croydon and I was all like, YAAAAY I CAN'T WAIT TIL YOU COME ROUND LATER. Then I went back to school and went to Graphics, where I did nothing and planned my after-exams party. Smoked a cigarette outside school, got caught by the headteacher, had an arguement about it. The bus stop is not on school grounds, and what kind of retard would class me as a role model? Ridiculous, seriously. Blew smoke at her, got on bus, feeling liberated. Went home, had a driving lesson (fun fun fun)...
Mum: "You know it's your brother and sister's concert tonight?"
Me: "NO. WHAT CONCERT?! YOU SAID ALEX COULD COME ROUND."
Mum: "Oh, uhh...I thought I told you? You have to come, I got you a ticket."
Me: "Are you kidding? Seriously? But, like...EEERRRGGHHHHH"
It's so fucking annoying. Why do parents just assume that you're free, and don't tell you about things that you're apparently doing? It's totally out of order. She can't just plan my fucking life.
And cuz I threw a strop about wanting to see Alex and not go to a shitty school concert, my mum started being a bitch to me, as always. I get really down when she's mean to me. I don't know why. I think it's just cuz when we're getting along, we're really good friends. But when we're not, she's SO harsh to me, and I think, fuck it, my own mother hates me.
So I went to the concert. Sat through about 60 kids. Tried so hard not to fall asleep. Told my mum I thought the music teacher was on pills, which was greeted by an evil stare. She ignored me the rest of the time, then called me a miserable cow after. It's a fucking concert, what do you expect? You're SUPPOSED to be quiet. Geez, woman.
Anyway. I'm in a shitty mood.
One of those moods where nothing is gonna make you feel even close to okay, where everything seems so fucking pointless.
It's just, I was having such a good day, I really was.
And then...she just spoiled it. She always fucking does. I hate her. ERGH.
All I'm asking for is one day. ONE DAY to get through without anything or anyone ruining my perfect day. Seriously. Is it REALLY that much to ask for?
My mum's a cunt.
End of.